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Darmok

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Sep 11, 2022
37
I tried taking 5800 mg of benzonatate yesterday evening. Obviously, did not work.

About 30 minutes after takig it a combination of things set in. Heartbeat went wild. Got really dizzy. Numbness in my extremities. Auditory hallucinations.

And then vomited a whole bunch.

The whole affair mostly subsided after 45 minutes.

Went to the ER. Could not tell them I had attempted suicide. Told them I had taken 6. They observed me for a while, rehydrated me, sent me home.

And now I have this unsuccessful attempt. I am sad and frustrated. Felt like the end was in my grasp and now it is gone.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
13,346
Don't be too hard to yourself. CTB isn't that easy. šŸ«‚ :heart:
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,088
I'm sorry you have to suffer, I understand why you'd feel like that as all I want is to be gone, I see so much cruelty in how there isn't the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer again, I wish you the best.
 
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brokensongs

Member
Oct 21, 2025
10
I tried taking 5800 mg of benzonatate yesterday evening. Obviously, did not work.

About 30 minutes after takig it a combination of things set in. Heartbeat went wild. Got really dizzy. Numbness in my extremities. Auditory hallucinations.

And then vomited a whole bunch.

The whole affair mostly subsided after 45 minutes.

Went to the ER. Could not tell them I had attempted suicide. Told them I had taken 6. They observed me for a while, rehydrated me, sent me home.

And now I have this unsuccessful attempt. I am sad and frustrated. Felt like the end was in my grasp and now it is gone.
Sorry šŸ˜” I know how frustrating a failed attempt can be. I attempted last night too. But truly, I'm really sorry.
 
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Jisatsu

黒恄薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
Just be glad they didn't figure out it was a attempt and make you get admitted into the psych ward.
 
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TheMadmanJL

Member
Nov 13, 2025
32
Practice doesn't always mean perfection! In a weird but caring way, I hope that you find your peace, life sucks and the fact that all people are about is money is discouraging! What good will paper do whenever our country defaults on its 30+ trillion dollar debt? People are ignorant, and the fact that my parents brought me into this world they were simply horny and I didn't ask for this shit! Fuck existence
 
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Darmok

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Sep 11, 2022
37
Life does suck. And I am stuck in it. I wish I could escape this life. But it is not easy, is it?