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兎の耳
The ghost of a girl who never lived.
- Aug 3, 2023
- 114
I decided I'd give the whole life thing one more try before I actually made the decision to end my life and I gave it a go. I moved across the country and took a much better paying job in a nice LGBTQIA+ friendly city.
I've been here for three months and if anything I'm more miserable than I ever have been. The job sucks and is beyond stressful and I really miss the pleasant laid back atmosphere where I was before. I have no energy and barely have enough money for groceries once I finish paying for my rent. To top it all off I confessed my feelings to my best friend whom I've had a crush on for around a year and they rejected me.
I don't want to keep going. I don't want to keep trying. I want to end my life peacefully but even that is hard because of pro lifers. The place I had been planning to buy SN from now only accepts purchases from corporate buyers. I'm at the end of my rope and am considering just OD'ing on Tylenol even though I am completely aware of how stupid that idea is as I am a healthcare worker and have seen the results first hand.
I guess I just needed to vent and I suppose I'm back.
I've been here for three months and if anything I'm more miserable than I ever have been. The job sucks and is beyond stressful and I really miss the pleasant laid back atmosphere where I was before. I have no energy and barely have enough money for groceries once I finish paying for my rent. To top it all off I confessed my feelings to my best friend whom I've had a crush on for around a year and they rejected me.
I don't want to keep going. I don't want to keep trying. I want to end my life peacefully but even that is hard because of pro lifers. The place I had been planning to buy SN from now only accepts purchases from corporate buyers. I'm at the end of my rope and am considering just OD'ing on Tylenol even though I am completely aware of how stupid that idea is as I am a healthcare worker and have seen the results first hand.
I guess I just needed to vent and I suppose I'm back.