
Noctis
I wish I'd done it years ago
- Dec 15, 2021
- 308
I've said it several times before, but I have virtually unlimited nitrogen gas at my job. I always knew that when I finally do it, it would be at my place of work because of the easy access to a painless death.
Well, that itch to off myself has been getting strong again, so I tested it out. I didn't do the full suicide hood setup, but I did hold the hose on front of my face. It took about 10 seconds before I felt anything. My skin was getting tingly and I was getting lightheaded. It kinda felt like getting really, really high, but less intense. After about 30 seconds, my vision started to close on from all sides and my body started going limp.
That's when I dropped my arms and started breathing air again. I started gasping for air, and I was back to normal after a minute or so.
But for those brief moments, while I could slowly feel consciousness slipping away...I haven't felt that good in a while.
When I'm finally ready, this is how I'm going to go. Granted, I knew this wasn't going to be my final act, but I was calm and at peace and there was no pain.
Soon, my friends. Soon.
Well, that itch to off myself has been getting strong again, so I tested it out. I didn't do the full suicide hood setup, but I did hold the hose on front of my face. It took about 10 seconds before I felt anything. My skin was getting tingly and I was getting lightheaded. It kinda felt like getting really, really high, but less intense. After about 30 seconds, my vision started to close on from all sides and my body started going limp.
That's when I dropped my arms and started breathing air again. I started gasping for air, and I was back to normal after a minute or so.
But for those brief moments, while I could slowly feel consciousness slipping away...I haven't felt that good in a while.
When I'm finally ready, this is how I'm going to go. Granted, I knew this wasn't going to be my final act, but I was calm and at peace and there was no pain.
Soon, my friends. Soon.