I thought it my death would be a bigger deal

[helpsh]

I used to fantasise about going, and think it was this massive decision. I thought I'd post a goodbye thread to keep me company. But I'm just going to go alone and my decision isn't a huge deal. I've lived 6 years past my last attempt, I've tried.

 

[Timothy7dff]

It's best to look at CTB as easy and normal. More than 1 million people have done it in the United States since 2000. Everyone dies eventually. CTB is just an early death.

 

[helpsh]

It's best to look at CTB as easy and normal. More than 1 million people have done it in the United States since 2000. Everyone dies eventually. CTB is just an early death.

It's true. I think I just look at my life, like a lot of people do, and I feel like I shouldn't be in this position. The issue is me and how fucked my brain and personality is. I've tried to fight and get better but there's no point. All I do is upset myself everyday because I can't function or operate or think like a normal person. I've tried like I have a good job but that just means I'm constantly embarrassing myself and fucking up.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best.

 

[helpsh]

Unfortunately it won't be tonight