I thought I could be happy again but everything got worse

[Suicide Depression]

I had planned to do ctb in a few months I wanted to spend this last Christmas and New Year's with my family and do ctb before May which is my birthday because I'm 27 years old and I don't want to turn 28 and I'm still suffering but something happened that I didn't expect the girl He started talking to me and we fell in love but his family is an obstacle and there have been problems because of that and when I thought I could be happy again everything got worse and worse and my desire for ctb increased even more and I don't know if it will happen this year the truth is not I want to leave her alone but if I can't see her and we can't be happy I really prefer to leave. She can find someone better apart from me I'm already screwed and I was thinking about doing ctb sooner or later but I didn't think life was going to hit me again I really hate this life and I hate living..My English is bad and I used the google translator an apology I know that no one is interested in my life but I wanted to tell my pain

 

[universe]

Don't worry, your story is completely understandable with Google translate. I'm really sorry for you, that your suffering brought you here. Your problem is quite common when you find yourself in a situation of great moral suffering. When the CTB looms it can be a real heartbreak, a fight between what we want and between leaving loved ones behind.
Personally, I have already made my choice, but in any case the decision of CTB is strictly personal. Only you can decide and be able to make a decision.
I wish you a lot of courage in this dilemma.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand that when life just gets worse it can be very dreadful and tiring. Existing can certainly be painful for many of us and it does sound like a difficult situation that you are in. After all, life can be very unpredictable. I also hate living, I always have done and I know that it can be hard to carry on staying here when all that you want is to leave this life behind.
I wish you the best.

 

[Suicide Depression]

No te preocupes, tu historia es completamente comprensible con el traductor de Google. Lo siento mucho por ti, que tu sufrimiento te haya traído aquí. Tu problema es bastante común cuando te encuentras en una situación de gran sufrimiento moral. Cuando se avecina la CTB puede ser un verdadero desamor, una lucha entre lo que queremos y entre dejar atrás a los seres queridos.
Personalmente, ya he hecho mi elección, pero en cualquier caso la decisión de CTB es estrictamente personal. Solo tú puedes decidir y ser capaz de tomar una decisión.
Te deseo mucho coraje en este dilema.

Don't worry, your story is completely understandable with Google translate. I'm really sorry for you, that your suffering brought you here. Your problem is quite common when you find yourself in a situation of great moral suffering. When the CTB looms it can be a real heartbreak, a fight between what we want and between leaving loved ones behind.
Personally, I have already made my choice, but in any case the decision of CTB is strictly personal. Only you can decide and be able to make a decision.
I wish you a lot of courage in this dilemma.

thanks for your answer brother I really had in mind to do ctb even before I found the love of my life but when I found him I was very happy but everything got worse later because of other people who did not let us be happy I really appreciate your attention brother I hope you find well

Entiendo que cuando la vida empeora, puede ser terrible y agotador. Existir ciertamente puede ser doloroso para muchos de nosotros y suena como una situación difícil en la que te encuentras. Después de todo, la vida puede ser muy impredecible. También odio vivir, siempre lo he hecho y sé que puede ser difícil seguir aquí cuando lo único que quieres es dejar esta vida atrás.
Te deseo lo mejor.

asi es hermano el sufrimiento parece no tener fin te puedes poner muy feliz por algo que te pasa bueno y siempre viene algo peor ah arruinarlo de verdad no se cuanto tiempo podre estar aqui pero agradezco sinceramente las respuestas que he recibido Realmente creí que a nadie le importaría nada de mi

 

[S like Siren]

I had planned to do ctb in a few months I wanted to spend this last Christmas and New Year's with my family and do ctb before May which is my birthday because I'm 27 years old and I don't want to turn 28 and I'm still suffering but something happened that I didn't expect the girl He started talking to me and we fell in love but his family is an obstacle and there have been problems because of that and when I thought I could be happy again everything got worse and worse and my desire for ctb increased even more and I don't know if it will happen this year the truth is not I want to leave her alone but if I can't see her and we can't be happy I really prefer to leave. She can find someone better apart from me I'm already screwed and I was thinking about doing ctb sooner or later but I didn't think life was going to hit me again I really hate this life and I hate living..My English is bad and I used the google translator an apology I know that no one is interested in my life but I wanted to tell my pain

Sounds like my story...i relate to you a lot and i feel you

 

[Suicide Depression]

Suena como mi historia... me identifico mucho contigo y te siento

lamento que tu tambien pases por lo mismo hermano es muy complicado en verdad pense que mi felicidad volveria pero trajo nuevos problemas y bueno creo que lamentablemente no estoy preparado para esta vida espero que todo mejore para ti hermano

 

[S like Siren]

lamento que tu tambien pases por lo mismo hermano es muy complicado en verdad pense que mi felicidad volveria pero trajo nuevos problemas y bueno creo que lamentablemente no estoy preparado para esta vida espero que todo mejore para ti hermano

Gracias,lo siento mucho para te... es doloroso, yo como te no me siento hecho para esta vida

 

[Niirvana]

Estamos en la misma, te mando un abrazo enorme

 

[Forever Sleep]

Life can be so cruel. Almost like it taunts us sometimes. I can understand how making a deep connection with someone can change your perspective on things- which can feel confusing if the desire to CTB is still strong.

I'm sorry- it sounds like a tricky situation with their family. Families can make life so difficult. I hope you can resolve the situation and wish you all the best in whatever outcome you decide upon.