I think the stress from PTSD is making me age faster, or possibly destroying my organs

[WhenTheyCry]

My blood pressure is constantly spiked because I'm angry all the time. If I end myself here and now, I won't have to deal with this bullshit anymore. I can't enjoy a single moment in life without my mind occupied by my past trauma. I think about lashing out, but obviously there are consequences. In this surveillance country all potential threats like me are monitored constantly anyways, so there's no way I'm going to be doing anything. I feel so oppressed by my mental struggles daily. Your bullies only have to torture you for 1 year, and it'll result in 100 years of suffering. Karma and justice isn't real. If there was a God they should have been punished by now.

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be so horrible what you go through, it's truly such a hellish existence where people suffer so unbearably.