I think my sister knows I want to ctb

[stainedtips]

Dont know if it adds anything but for context i'm 3 years older than her. We've always had a pretty bad relationship. The typical sibling dynamic except more hostile and aggressive, because I never liked her and as she got older she didn't like me either. And it's been like that for a long time up until recently. She's a lot nicer to me now. She comes up to talk to me, stands up for me if anything happens, wants me to go places with her, etc. She's even offering (insisting) to make me a cake. And she bought a shirt matching mine to wear at my birthday thing. This probably seems like pretty normal stuff but I want to express how bad our relationship was beforehand. She's also getting to that age where her attitude is changing and I would expect her to get more sarcastic or mean or whatever. But she's being way nicer and I don't really know why she did a 180, only that she's noticed I seem off. It feels nice that i'm being treated kindly but i'm scared of being viewed that way

 

[pharmacoepia]

I think she's either matured or seen that you go on sasu. If you keep your devices unlocked on accident, that could be a reason why.

Or maybe, shes actually noticing that her big bro isn't being himself and wants to make him feel hospitality. Feel glad that your sister is being emotionally supportive. Being scared of this suddenly is reasonable since its unexpected, but don't mistake it for infantilizing you.

 

[blacksand]

How old is she. A lot of people need until about 20-21 to be fully conscious and not animal like in their behaviour toward others. My 7yrs younger cousin treated me like absolute dirt from 11-17 and now at 19 she is like a different person.

 

[stainedtips]

Or maybe, shes actually noticing that her big bro isn't being himself and wants to make him feel hospitality.

I don't leave any devices unlocked, so I think this might be it. Or sometimes I make jokes about it and she connected the dots. And don't worry, I don't think there's anything negative behind it, I'm just kind of worried of being perceived like that. But i'll relish in the support right now
I don't feel comfortable sharing her age becuase id be giving away mine, but she's still young, a little into teenage years. Maybe she's just had a little change of heart early

 

[FuneralCry]

Hopefully it doesn't make existing worse if your sister knows. Ending up locked in a psych ward sounds so horrible to me, it's why it's always for the best that other people don't find out about wishes/plans to die as so many people exist in denial of the fact that suicide is a perfectly logical option in this world.

 

[fatraccoon]

My depression made me such a bad, irritable person towards my big brother; so I understand your situation. I hated everything and I didn't treat my brother with kindness, but these past few years i've changed and I try to not be rude because he doesn't deserve that. Just like you say, I snap necks if someone does or say anything bad to my brother and I always listen to him.
It could just be that she has matured and sees wrong in her past actions, or just sees you are in a bad spot mentally. Either way, it is a good change, don't you think?

 

[StaticCryBabye]

You've had this hostile, aggressive sibling dynamic for ages, and suddenly she's all sunshine and rainbows? Getting chatty, standing up for you, baking cakes, and even twinning shirts? That's some next-level behavior shift, my friend. Maybe, just maybe, she's noticed that you're not in the best headspace and decided to extend an olive branch. Or perhaps she's just trying to guilt-trip you into being stuck with her forever. Who knows? It's like a real-life plot twist. Enjoy the kindness, but keep an eye out for any ulterior motives. It's your call whether you want to embrace the change or stay skeptical. Just remember, people can surprise you, and siblings can be weirdly complex creatures.

 

[stainedtips]

Hopefully it doesn't make existing worse if your sister knows. Ending up locked in a psych ward sounds so horrible to me, it's why it's always for the best that other people don't find out about wishes/plans to die as so many people exist in denial of the fact that suicide is a perfectly logical option in this world.

True. But I still don't know if she knows what I actually want to do, hopefully she just thinks i'm acting different. If she did I doubt she'd tell anyone but I agree with you, I think being sent to a facility would end up making me worse.

My depression made me such a bad, irritable person towards my big brother; so I understand your situation. I hated everything and I didn't treat my brother with kindness, but these past few years i've changed and I try to not be rude because he doesn't deserve that. Just like you say, I snap necks if someone does or say anything bad to my brother and I always listen to him.
It could just be that she has matured and sees wrong in her past actions, or just sees you are in a bad spot mentally. Either way, it is a good change, don't you think?

Maybe this is it. Currently, she has flipped a little and gotten mean, but nowhere near previous and I feel our relationship is more playful now. I hope she turns out like you, I don't like fighting. And yes, I definitely like the new attitude.

You've had this hostile, aggressive sibling dynamic for ages, and suddenly she's all sunshine and rainbows? Getting chatty, standing up for you, baking cakes, and even twinning shirts? That's some next-level behavior shift, my friend. Maybe, just maybe, she's noticed that you're not in the best headspace and decided to extend an olive branch. Or perhaps she's just trying to guilt-trip you into being stuck with her forever. Who knows? It's like a real-life plot twist. Enjoy the kindness, but keep an eye out for any ulterior motives. It's your call whether you want to embrace the change or stay skeptical. Just remember, people can surprise you, and siblings can be weirdly complex creatures.

I hope she's not. And I always have for everything. Bad friendships have made me for keen on things. I watch for her attitude to change and think about whether it cancels out the previous good deeds she's done. But I also don't think she'd really be doing this to manipulate me, I think she's too young to really know what to do with me. I think she's just being weird and treating me with an attitude according to her mood