it's really mind gobbling how fast can a friendship turn into. i can't believe it has been MONTH since we stopped talking when there wasn't a day that we didn't talk to each other, may it be nonsensical things, or other stuff.
i miss them, i hate that i can't have anything for as long as i want it to. why does everything have to change somehow? i hate my life. i hope in my next life, i would be someone who's not scared of growing up. i hope to be someone who will and can embrace every changes that come across in life. not in this life tho.
i hope they will not blame themselves or feel guilty or anything once i'm gone. i will not be there to assure them that it's okay, because it's part of life– to grow and to change. if being apart from me is what will make my loved ones to grow, i will happily do so. i would never want to be someone that holds anyone back.
i miss them, i hate that i can't have anything for as long as i want it to. why does everything have to change somehow? i hate my life. i hope in my next life, i would be someone who's not scared of growing up. i hope to be someone who will and can embrace every changes that come across in life. not in this life tho.
i hope they will not blame themselves or feel guilty or anything once i'm gone. i will not be there to assure them that it's okay, because it's part of life– to grow and to change. if being apart from me is what will make my loved ones to grow, i will happily do so. i would never want to be someone that holds anyone back.
