Cyber4ngel!
Member
- Aug 24, 2024
- 63
Well, officially I am actively looking to commit suicide, I posted my message in the partner's megathread because I don't want to go alone, I hope someone responds and I would like to have one last day to go out for a walk, have a good time, and then book a night in a hotel and die, I would like to use sn or n.
The situation is already too much to bear, I would like to be a normal 18-year-old girl who only has to worry about her studies and not being late home.
But I am an 18-year-old girl who had to run away from home and live alone at 17, who right now has lost my house, my partner, my friends, my entire family, my money, and my physical and mental health. I'm homeless
I wish in another universe everything went well for me, I wish in another universe my mom was still alive and taking care of me, I wish that when people die they go to another better universe where they can be happy, I wish I could see my mom again.
I know I'm not very well-known here and I'm not a popular user that anyone will miss or remember, but my time in this place was lovely, I was able to talk to people who don't judge me.
Thank you for everything, I think I've decided to die, as soon as I can find a partner, I've been alone my whole life, I want to die hugging someone at least. My favorite thing to do is hugging someone, calms my rotten brain
The only thing left for me to do is make the preparations: buy my sn, research which antiemetic to use, give my beloved cat up for adoption, and wait for a partner. I'm not going to write a suicide note because I don't have anyone in my life except my cat, maybe I'll write something for him, I love him
It brings me some kind of peace knowing that i finally decided my method, wish me luck!
The situation is already too much to bear, I would like to be a normal 18-year-old girl who only has to worry about her studies and not being late home.
But I am an 18-year-old girl who had to run away from home and live alone at 17, who right now has lost my house, my partner, my friends, my entire family, my money, and my physical and mental health. I'm homeless
I wish in another universe everything went well for me, I wish in another universe my mom was still alive and taking care of me, I wish that when people die they go to another better universe where they can be happy, I wish I could see my mom again.
I know I'm not very well-known here and I'm not a popular user that anyone will miss or remember, but my time in this place was lovely, I was able to talk to people who don't judge me.
Thank you for everything, I think I've decided to die, as soon as I can find a partner, I've been alone my whole life, I want to die hugging someone at least. My favorite thing to do is hugging someone, calms my rotten brain
The only thing left for me to do is make the preparations: buy my sn, research which antiemetic to use, give my beloved cat up for adoption, and wait for a partner. I'm not going to write a suicide note because I don't have anyone in my life except my cat, maybe I'll write something for him, I love him
It brings me some kind of peace knowing that i finally decided my method, wish me luck!