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Cyber4ngel!

Cyber4ngel!

Despite all my rage im still just a rat in a cage
Aug 24, 2024
87
Well, officially I am actively looking to commit suicide, I posted my message in the partner's megathread because I don't want to go alone, I hope someone responds and I would like to have one last day to go out for a walk, have a good time, and then book a night in a hotel and die, I would like to use sn or n.


The situation is already too much to bear, I would like to be a normal 18-year-old girl who only has to worry about her studies and not being late home.


But I am an 18-year-old girl who had to run away from home and live alone at 17, who right now has lost my house, my partner, my friends, my entire family, my money, and my physical and mental health. I'm homeless


I wish in another universe everything went well for me, I wish in another universe my mom was still alive and taking care of me, I wish that when people die they go to another better universe where they can be happy, I wish I could see my mom again.


I know I'm not very well-known here and I'm not a popular user that anyone will miss or remember, but my time in this place was lovely, I was able to talk to people who don't judge me.


Thank you for everything, I think I've decided to die, as soon as I can find a partner, I've been alone my whole life, I want to die hugging someone at least. My favorite thing to do is hugging someone, calms my rotten brain

The only thing left for me to do is make the preparations: buy my sn, research which antiemetic to use, give my beloved cat up for adoption, and wait for a partner. I'm not going to write a suicide note because I don't have anyone in my life except my cat, maybe I'll write something for him, I love him

It brings me some kind of peace knowing that i finally decided my method, wish me luck!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,706
I hope that you find the freedom from the suffering you are searching for, I wish you the best.
 
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avalokitesvara

avalokitesvara

bodhisattva
Nov 28, 2024
268
I'm so sorry so much has happened to you in your young life and you are suffering so much. I hope you find peace 🌹
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Global Mod · Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,954
I am sorry you have lost everything. I hope you find the peace you deserve, maybe even become an angel if there is something after this.
 
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four_walls_girl

four_walls_girl

En-BEDded in reality
Nov 18, 2024
64
I've read your story and seen you talk about your mum before. As a fellow age regressor, I hope you can find peace in a place that allows you to be forever a child in your mums care <3
 
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stella68

Member
Nov 26, 2024
35
Bene, ufficialmente sto cercando attivamente di suicidarmi, ho pubblicato il mio messaggio nel megathread del partner perché non voglio andare da solo, spero che qualcuno risponda e vorrei avere un ultimo giorno per uscire a fare una passeggiata, divertirmi e poi prenotare una notte in un hotel e morire, vorrei usare sn o n.


La situazione è già troppo pesante da sopportare, vorrei essere una normale ragazza di 18 anni che deve solo preoccuparsi di studiare e di non arrivare a casa in ritardo.


Ma sono una ragazza di 18 anni che ha dovuto scappare di casa e vivere da sola a 17 anni, che in questo momento ha perso la casa, il compagno, gli amici, tutta la famiglia, i soldi e la salute fisica e mentale. Sono senza casa.


Vorrei che in un altro universo tutto andasse bene per me, vorrei che in un altro universo mia madre fosse ancora viva e si prendesse cura di me, vorrei che quando le persone muoiono andassero in un altro universo migliore dove potessero essere felici, vorrei poter rivedere mia madre.


So che non sono molto conosciuto qui e non sono un utente popolare di cui qualcuno sentirà la mancanza o che ricorderà, ma il tempo trascorso in questo posto è stato meraviglioso, ho potuto parlare con persone che non mi giudicano.


Grazie di tutto, credo di aver deciso di morire, appena trovo un compagno, sono stato solo per tutta la vita, voglio morire abbracciando almeno qualcuno. La cosa che preferisco fare è abbracciare qualcuno, calma il mio cervello marcio

L'unica cosa che mi resta da fare è preparare i preparativi: comprare il mio sn, cercare quale antiemetico usare, dare in adozione il mio amato gatto e aspettare un partner. Non scriverò una lettera di suicidio perché non ho nessuno nella mia vita tranne il mio gatto, forse scriverò qualcosa per lui, lo amo

Mi dà un po' di pace sapere che ho finalmente deciso il mio metodo, auguratemi buona fortuna!
Vieni a capire. Io ho difficoltà a procurarmi SN. mi puoi aiutare?
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,796
I hope you find peace soon. Best of luck and make sure to be careful when trying to find a partner here as, just like on every place on the internet, people here cannot automatically be trusted. Don't let the fact that this is a site for suicidal people make you forgot what humans really are like
 
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exhumed101

exhumed101

Experienced
Nov 25, 2024
224
Well, officially I am actively looking to commit suicide, I posted my message in the partner's megathread because I don't want to go alone, I hope someone responds and I would like to have one last day to go out for a walk, have a good time, and then book a night in a hotel and die, I would like to use sn or n.


The situation is already too much to bear, I would like to be a normal 18-year-old girl who only has to worry about her studies and not being late home.


But I am an 18-year-old girl who had to run away from home and live alone at 17, who right now has lost my house, my partner, my friends, my entire family, my money, and my physical and mental health. I'm homeless


I wish in another universe everything went well for me, I wish in another universe my mom was still alive and taking care of me, I wish that when people die they go to another better universe where they can be happy, I wish I could see my mom again.


I know I'm not very well-known here and I'm not a popular user that anyone will miss or remember, but my time in this place was lovely, I was able to talk to people who don't judge me.


Thank you for everything, I think I've decided to die, as soon as I can find a partner, I've been alone my whole life, I want to die hugging someone at least. My favorite thing to do is hugging someone, calms my rotten brain

The only thing left for me to do is make the preparations: buy my sn, research which antiemetic to use, give my beloved cat up for adoption, and wait for a partner. I'm not going to write a suicide note because I don't have anyone in my life except my cat, maybe I'll write something for him, I love him

It brings me some kind of peace knowing that i finally decided my method, wish me luck!
Yeah SaSu is great
 
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Depressive_Thoughts

Depressive_Thoughts

Member
Jan 6, 2025
52
I'm not sure you are still there, but I know the feeling. I'm so sorry.
 
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Odwin

Odwin

Bucket of Chicken
Mar 31, 2021
558
Mhh, what a waste. Well, i dont know your situation and were your from, but 17 is young
 

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