
toseeyousmile
Member
- Nov 23, 2020
- 80
Hanging out with my friends and even playing games I used to enjoy or doing really anything, I just can't find joy in them anymore. My means of escapism isn't working, not only that, I find myself feeling guilty over being a shit human being all the time. This has impacted me in ways like for example, there's a cute girl at the register or whatever, I would feel like a loser standing there. I realize that I'm unattractive and given up on myself or whatever, but it bothers me now, as if I am averse to things that are positive in a way, I'd rather choose the path of self-destructive behaviour, that's what I believe is right for me. I got my sn I think it'll be my time soon.