I think I’m stupid.

[drownitoutwithmusic]

I'm convinced that I'm dumb. I can only pass tests if I really study for them, like 10x harder than everyone else. It makes it hard for me to pass tests for jobs or focus because I feel like everyone is catching on easier/faster than me. It hinders my confidence a lot & makes me feel like all of my opinions are flawed bc I'm so fucking stupid. I have to finish like 5 tests for this job and if I can't, well, I want a backup plan.

Plz help me with:

1. Legal to obtain
2. Virtually painless
3. If it doesn't work there won't be any brain damage
4. Not SN

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really tiring feeling so trapped in that situation, existence is just too cruel and I find it awful how people suffer so much all through no fault of their own, but anyway best wishes, I hate how suicide is purposely made so difficult in this world and how peaceful and reliable methods like Nembutal aren't legalised.

 

[stillunemployed]

I am also like this. Before high school, getting good grades was easy, after that I just couldnt focus, my mind wandered constantly.

Im sorry, but death is rarely painless unless die of old age and on morphine.

Legality is also tough, because laws in a lot of countries are exactly tailored for cover and to stop people from ctb.