Backwoodsqueer
Member
- May 27, 2019
- 57
I've been pushed past my breaking point and I'm ready to say my goodbyes to this realm. I have no real personal connections any more or anywhere I belong. It's painfully aware that the people I live with are done living with me and I've run out of housing options.
All of this plus my chronic pain tells me that's it's my time. I have my SN and all required/suggested antiemetics and antacids. I'm left alone for 12+ hours at a time so I feel comfortable doing it at home without being found.
My main concern is my cat. I know he'll be well taken care of after my passing but I also know he'll be *with* me during my passing and the thought of him snuggling up to me as I fade away is the only thing holding me back. I feel like it wouldn't be fair to do that to him but I can't lock him out of the room or he will definitely lead to me being found.
I don't know why I posted this, honestly. I guess I'm just trying to get my final thoughts together and needed somewhere to put it.
All of this plus my chronic pain tells me that's it's my time. I have my SN and all required/suggested antiemetics and antacids. I'm left alone for 12+ hours at a time so I feel comfortable doing it at home without being found.
My main concern is my cat. I know he'll be well taken care of after my passing but I also know he'll be *with* me during my passing and the thought of him snuggling up to me as I fade away is the only thing holding me back. I feel like it wouldn't be fair to do that to him but I can't lock him out of the room or he will definitely lead to me being found.
I don't know why I posted this, honestly. I guess I'm just trying to get my final thoughts together and needed somewhere to put it.