I think I’m ready

[Rose190021]

I thought about ctb all night last night. I bought sleeping pills and alcohol. I'm going to drink now and get drunk. Then take sleeping pills. Then take about 40 other different pills and then put a bag over my wad with tape. So by using these different things I shouldn't make it. At least I'm hoping. I'll keep you guys updated.

 

[Raggas]

All the best with whatever you choose. I don't want to cause doubt in you but it might be a worrisome method (pills in general).

 

[Rose190021]

I know but I'm hoping something will work

 

[Escaper Boy]

I sincerely wish your endeavor will bring you the peace and serenity that you longed for. Best of luck.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I wish you the best, nevertheless I have low confidence in otc pills. I hope the bag will do the jib painlessly. Hugs
Ha

I know but I'm hoping something will work

Haven't you got SN?

 

[Rose190021]

I wish you the best, nevertheless I have low confidence in otc pills. I hope the bag will do the jib painlessly. Hugs
Ha
Haven't you got SN?

I do but I can't get the courage to drink it. Maybe I'll get the courage after I get drunk. I'm already starting to feel the alcohol now

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I do but I can't get the courage to drink it. Maybe I'll get the courage after I get drunk. I'm already starting to feel the alcohol now

SN needs to take antiemetics before, I think you'll just throw up if you drink it after alcohol.

 

[Macc Lad]

SN needs to take antiemetics before, I think you'll just throw up if you drink it after alcohol.

judging by this forum......SN doesn't always work!

 

[JadedGray]

OTC sleeping pills on their own wouldn't be efficient. Even benzos aren't unless you took hundreds. I tried taking 100 once and it just caused me to sleep for 24 hours. Only barbiturates on their own will work. But since you're using them to make you drowsy then they will help get the job done with regards to dulling your senses and helping with SI. I don't know if they will be strong enough for something more time consuming like suffocation, though since you could still have time in a semi-conscious state to tear the bag off while you're gasping for air. They would probably only work with a quick death like jumping. Of course it also depends on how strong they are, how many you take, and whether they just make you drowsy or put you in a deep sleep.

 

[Ivenocare]

I wish you the best, good luck.

 

[wanttodie]

good luck

 

[Rose190021]

I'm still here need more liquid courage.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I'm still here need more liquid courage.

Let me just give you a hug

 

[Rose190021]

I'm taking pills now

 

[Kikoo Loool]

You're not alone.

 

[JadedGray]

I wish you the best of luck and that it's peaceful.

 

[Rose190021]

I took them so we will see

 

[Psilo]

All the best with whatever you choose. I don't want to cause doubt in you but it might be a worrisome method (pills in general).

Yes indeed.

Wish you all the best.

May you find peace Rose.

 

[Ivenocare]

I wonder if she made it?

 

[spanishguy22]

Hopefully she's free

 

[Calculator321]

I hope she's free and had no trouble on her way. Peace.
BTW what method is it exactly? Is it pills + plastic bag over head or Alcohol+pills+SN?

 

[Escaper Boy]

I hope Rose is finally in peace. She doesn't deserve to suffer any further.

 

[Worndown]

It has been a day.

 

[bugfriendly]

Rose I hope by now you have found the peace you have been longing for

 

[pipajo]

i really wish the best for u

 

[NotSure]

I wish things could have gone differently.

 

[NotSure]

It may have been for the best. If it didn't happen then, it would have happened soon. Her suffering would have been prolonged. If you can somehow read this Rose, Goodbye.

May have, but she seemed too young to be so sad. Life is hard "the first time through". The breakups, the job losses, firing, quitting, etc., the feeling that you're not going to get better, the feeling that you're not worth it. After awhile it seems, to me anyways, that all those feelings fade. You find better, you experience worse...it's all a cycle. But, giving up on the cycle is just giving up on yourself, and that's why it's sad. You'll always be better than yesterday.

 

[Worndown]

If you are far enough down the well, the climb out seems insurmountable.

 

[NotSure]

If you are far enough down the well, the climb out seems insurmountable.

I understand. I just only justify suicide when in a terminal condition or chronic pain/illness. Heartbreak, loneliness, depression, those can all be overcome. Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel is incredibly hard sometimes. But, I'd hope anyone looking can find it. I wouldn't talk anyone into, or out of ctb, but rather just talk TO. Make sure they're completely confident. Suicide is do AND die. No room for regrets.

 

[Yelkovan]

God bless. I hope you found peace.