Venting I think I'm on the way to the looney bin, how should I prepare myself?

[Kodokushi]

I think I'm going crazy and if I attempt - it's a trip straight to the coocoo house. How do I prepare myself for it? CAN I ever prepare for that hell? I don't know what to do anymore, I'm losing my mind
I'm sorry if I respond with a huge delay, very not okay in the head right now

 

[gizzreid]

i went when i was younger, it varies from place to place. mine was nice, but it's cause my mom has some money. the ones with less funding tend to be a little more scary, most of the time you don't have to worry about the other patients rather the nurses and doctors. just remember your feelings and emotions are valid regardless of how the doctors make you feel, they often try to make you feel small because they have more power than you. make sure you eat regularly because they will suspect you have an ED if you don't and then you're gonna be kept even longer. just do everything you can to make yourself seem as mentally healthy as you can so they release you, i just faked recovery and got out pretty quick despite being in there for an attempt as well. tell them what they wanna hear, it's like an acting gig in a way

 

[thecolourgold]

Don't attempt if you think you'll be found or fail. If you can SN, you should. I went to a state funded inpatient and it was really bad. I got no help and got worse. I only had one therapy appointment in a week and I was assaulted. We weren't allowed to go inside and one of my floor mates was someone who committed a shooting.

 

[SoftWorries]

When I was in the hospital I was held for 3 days on a hospital bed in the hallway unable to leave even to go to the bathroom except at set times. The bed was reclined at all times and they wouldn't adjust it up.

I went into a fevered state from laying constantly still where I'd be dreaming about kind nurses taking me to interesting parts of the hospital only to wake up to the room filled with people.

After that time I've never again admitted feeling suicidal to anyone. I wasn't provided any care at the hospital and got into even worse shape because of it.

This wasn't following a suicide attempt this was because I was feeling suicidal and unsafe during a panic attack. After 3 days I finally met with my psychiatrist for a benzo refill and got to go home.

Don't attempt if you think you'll be found or fail. If you can SN, you should. I went to a state funded inpatient and it was really bad. I got no help and got worse. I only had one therapy appointment in a week and I was assaulted. We weren't allowed to go inside and one of my floor mates was someone who committed a shooting.

That sounds so awful. I'm sorry you went through that experience.

 

[Readytogo246]

I'd do everything possible to avoid a hospital.

 

[willitpass]

Keep your head down, don't cause trouble. Don't get on ANYONES bad side, staff and patients included. Piss off staff and you'll loose privileges and they may well restrain you and/or chemically sedate you, which happened to me 5 times among all of my stays and I don't believe I will ever recover from the trauma of it. Stay of other patients good side or you'll get fought, luckily that was never a problem for me as I tried my best to stay distanced from them. Make friends with people as it makes it easier, but don't get too attached or too close, that will just get you in bigger trouble, keep it superficial. If you do want help, be honest with them, they may be able to find you resources faster than being outpatient. Don't try to do anything stupid, such as an attempt or self harm, while inpatient, they may again restrain you and you may end up on one-to-one, which involves them watching you do everything, including showering and using the bathroom. I lived that dream for months during multiple stays.

 

[kråkevind]

Bring comfy clothes if you can but not your good clothes. You won't be allowed belts or and kind of string. Leave your jewelry at home if you have any along with debit cards. Bring phone numbers in case you're not allowed to keep your phone. Just stay to yourself and try to be respectful to others but don't let them bully you. I've been 4 times and they weren't all bad. I hated being forced to stay out in the day room. I was forced to go each time. Two times just from talking about it. One time got caught cutting my wrist and the other was from trying to ctb by cop. Good luck.