I think I’m done

[IwantSomething]

Hey everyone. How's it going? Oh me I'm not doing great. It's rough really rough. I don't think I want to do anything anymore. I think I'm ready to give up. There's a place I could go. It's a little far away and would take around three hours to bike too. But I could do it. I don't think anyone would notice let alone miss me. I haven't received a text or call from anything but customers in what seems like forever. I feel so numb. I'm not even angry or sad anymore. It's just nothing I feel nothing I am nothing. I'm probably going to fail but just in case I don't I wanted to post a last word to anyone listening.

You are a good person. You don't deserve anything that has happened to you that makes you feel like this. You deserve to be happy and safe and you deserve the world. If I could somehow take away what any of you are going through I would. But I can't. So instead I offer a few words to possibly lighten the load. I can't say I know you or love you or anything like that. I don't know you. But I can say without a doubt that you are a good person. Everyone here has been so kind and understanding. I could never imagine a bad person caring about this. I can not say that things will get better because I don't know. Nobody knows. But I do know one thing. There will be someone who wants to stand by your side no matter how bad things get. Wether it's a lover a friend a family member a pet. I know that if you disappeared someone would notice. You have an impact even if you don't see it. I will miss all of you if I succeed. You were good people.

I hope things get better one way or another.

 

[Obliviate]

I wish you a peaceful departure

 

[waitingforrest]

I hope the same for you as well. It's a rough world, and you deserve better. I'll miss you as well, as even if we don't know each other, I think we can both understand the pain life puts us through; strangers, but not exactly strangers.

Wherever you bike to, I hope it is far away from this hateful world. Whether you fail, you are always welcome on this forum if you need somewhere to go.

 

[Lily (Osako)]

Your post has me bawling. I hope you know you are a wonderful person with a huge heart and deserve love. I'm so sorry you're hurting. I'm so sorry we are all hurting. I don't know what else to say except I wish I could hug you.

 

[ctbontime]

im so sorry you're hurting as well... i wish i could help too...

take it easy.
if you change your mind, please respond and don't be ashamed. no judgment from anyone here, in fact, we'll understand more than most.

 

[Cathy Ames]

You are a good person. You don't deserve anything that has happened to you that makes you feel like this. You deserve to be happy and safe and you deserve the world. If I could somehow take away what any of you are going through I would. But I can't. So instead I offer a few words to possibly lighten the load. I can't say I know you or love you or anything like that. I don't know you. But I can say without a doubt that you are a good person.

Hey! You too. Same to you from me.

 

[brokensea]

Hey everyone. How's it going? Oh me I'm not doing great. It's rough really rough. I don't think I want to do anything anymore. I think I'm ready to give up. There's a place I could go. It's a little far away and would take around three hours to bike too. But I could do it. I don't think anyone would notice let alone miss me. I haven't received a text or call from anything but customers in what seems like forever. I feel so numb. I'm not even angry or sad anymore. It's just nothing I feel nothing I am nothing. I'm probably going to fail but just in case I don't I wanted to post a last word to anyone listening.

You are a good person. You don't deserve anything that has happened to you that makes you feel like this. You deserve to be happy and safe and you deserve the world. If I could somehow take away what any of you are going through I would. But I can't. So instead I offer a few words to possibly lighten the load. I can't say I know you or love you or anything like that. I don't know you. But I can say without a doubt that you are a good person. Everyone here has been so kind and understanding. I could never imagine a bad person caring about this. I can not say that things will get better because I don't know. Nobody knows. But I do know one thing. There will be someone who wants to stand by your side no matter how bad things get. Wether it's a lover a friend a family member a pet. I know that if you disappeared someone would notice. You have an impact even if you don't see it. I will miss all of you if I succeed. You were good people.

I hope things get better one way or another.

What you wrote is so beautiful. Thank you. I have found the best people on here who will listen to you and care when no one else does. Some of the best of humanity is in this group and if life was in any way fair they would receive all of the kindness and love they give to others and be free of pain. I don't know why the best of us suffer the worst. I think the world is so brutal and cruel and only people who are kind can really see it for what it is. How people are, how messed up this place is and it's a world we don't want to be in. We can't live in and don't feel a part of something so ugly and cruel because it is not who we are and the world in all it's darkness, destroys us.

 

[atonofdespair24]

Thank you for this. I am about to cry my eyes out, so choked up reading this. I wish you didn't have to struggle with what's bothering you, because you seem awesome. Whatever happens I hope you find some kind of solution, however you'd like to do that. I hope your decisions bring you peace

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I wish the same for you. You have a huge heart, as others have said, with lots of love in it. I wish I could give you a hug. I wish you peace.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Sorry life brought you to this. You seem awesome to me. As others have said. You are always welcome if you change your mind or are unsuccessful.

 

[Forever Sleep]

There are so many beautiful souls on here. It's so sad that so many are suffering.

Are you biking into nature? I hope it is a beautiful day.

It's true that none of us know each other but I think we share a bond of empathy. When we go, it feels like another sensitive, caring person lost to an uncaring, cruel world. I'm so sorry life has lead you to this point but I hope you can find peace in whatever you decide.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that it has come to this for you. It really is such a cruel existence and none of us here should have to endure all this suffering. I hope that in whatever happens you find relief from what you are going through. Best wishes.

 

[tiny_dancer]

Thank you for your beautiful post. You also deserve the world, happiness and safety and I'm sorry if you haven't received that. You seem like a good, kind soul and my heart goes out to you for your suffering. Sending love.

 

[theboy]

I wish you peace, friend