I think I will flush my N down the toilet. Safe?

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Only way for me to move on with my life.

Do you think it is safe to do so? Maybe someone can recommend a safer place to dispose of it?!

 

[The anhedonic one]

Give it to me PLEASE !

 

[whatevs]

Only way for me to move on with my life.

Do you think it is safe to do so? Maybe someone can recommend a safer place to dispose of it?!

Keep it stored, it isn't going to kill you by itself. It's good to have a painless escape plan. Just leave in a drawer and forget about it.

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

Keep it stored, it isn't going to kill you by itself. It's good to have a painless escape plan. Just leave in a drawer and forget about it.

I have my N for 2 years now. I know what you mean but to move on I need to get rid of anything associated with suicide including my SS account.

 

[Kasumi]

I have my N for 2 years now. I know what you mean but to move on I need to get rid of anything associated with suicide including my SS account.

If sufficiently diluted you can put everything down the drain, question is just what counts as "sufficiently diluted".
Or you can use the Kitty-litter method and pour it literally in some cat-litter, bag it up securely and dispose of it in the burnable trash.

Generally if you live in the EU or otherwise know you can rely on your doctors to keep quiet, I'd suggest you ask them if it's okay to flush it down the toilet or if you can hand it over to them so that they can dispose of it instead.

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

if you can hand it over to them so that they can dispose of it instead.

Wow, never thought of this. I think this is a great advice. But are you sure this won´t have consequences?! I will do some research about this. Thank you.

 

[Xta4Love]

I have my N for 2 years now. I know what you mean but to move on I need to get rid of anything associated with suicide including my SS account.

I understand you cant have anything associated with suicide in your home. Please consider sending N to someone in need. There are lot of people suffering who dont have access to N. You have a humane dignified death in your hands. Please send it to me or someone else in need. I'll cover your expenses. Much love and good luck

 

[whatevs]

I have my N for 2 years now. I know what you mean but to move on I need to get rid of anything associated with suicide including my SS account.

Makes sense. I hope you get to live a good life! Good luck.

 

[Kasumi]

Wow, never thought of this. I think this is a great advice. But are you sure this won´t have consequences?! I will do some research about this. Thank you.

depends on the country you live in, if they don't really care about confidentiality then it might not be a safe option.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

OMG ... either store it safely in a dark cool place or give it to someone in desperate need if possible.

 

[Jumper Seoirse]

Only way for me to move on with my life.

Do you think it is safe to do so? Maybe someone can recommend a safer place to dispose of it?!

Good luck, not many people tend to stay around once they have N, to dispose of it properly there are a few ways if you don't want to keep it, go into a hospital and drop it in the medical waste bins, hand it over in your local Veterinary practice, add it to 5 liters of water and spray the ants to give them a good sleep not promising they won't CTB though.

Best of luck for the future.

Cheers

Jumper Geo

 

[LittleJem]

What country are you in? Could you invite people in your country to write to you with their reasons for CTB then do a lottery of the ones you feel are most in need?

 

[Kozu]

Ngl, don't dispose of it just like that. Keep it, give it, sell it...
Everyone wants it, and maybe you'll want it later.
There's no good reason to throw it away.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think it's probably against the site rules asking someone else to actually send you a method, Nembutal is an illegal substance anyway, and I don't think the OP would want to break the law by sending it.

But I do really envy the OP for having N though and yes it's horrible the thought of someone wasting such a peaceful method as I think that to leave this world in such a peaceful way would be the best outcome possible, we are all going to die anyway so I think it would always be preferable to exit peacefully on my own terms, but this is just the way that things are. I also don't understand why the OP would want to get rid of N as existing can very easily get much more unbearable for anyone at any moment, I would see it as being comforting always having the option of a peaceful way to exit.

 

[picklemick]

I think it's probably against the site rules asking someone else to actually send you a method, Nembutal is an illegal substance anyway, and I don't think the OP would want to break the law by sending it.

But I do really envy the OP for having N though and yes it's horrible the thought of someone wasting such a peaceful method as I think that to leave this world in such a peaceful way would be the best outcome possible, we are all going to die anyway so I think it would always be preferable to exit peacefully on my own terms, but this is just the way that things are. I also don't understand why the OP would want to get rid of N as existing can very easily get much more unbearable for anyone at any moment, I would see it as being comforting always having the option of a peaceful way to exit.

Agreed I held my SN for a year as I attempted recovery. It was comforting having that option if things got worse. It's an awful feeling not having that anymore.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I understand you cant have anything associated with suicide in your home. Please consider sending N to someone in need. There are lot of people suffering who dont have access to N. You have a humane dignified death in your hands. Please send it to me or someone else in need. I'll cover your expenses. Much love and good luck

I imagine that would be considered 'assisting a suicide' for them- if you use it. That's illegal in most countries. I do understand you're wish. I think we'd all LOVE to get our hands on N but giving it- or, selling it to someone else puts the OP in enormous risk. Ok- authorities may never find out but I'm sure they'll try- and now- it's on a public forum. Presumably you'll need to contact one another and exchange details- leaving a paper trail- unless you're super tech savy and know how to cover all your tracks. Sorry to sound so critical but sadly- suicide and I imagine assisting suicide is dealt with so heavy handedly in this world.

 

[Huntfish34]

Hmmm.... Yeah you would have to be careful to a degree if you want to sell or give it to someone. All kinda depends on where you are located I guess.

I wish you the best in whatever may happen, Godspeed-

 

[Forever Sleep]

Wow, never thought of this. I think this is a great advice. But are you sure this won´t have consequences?! I will do some research about this. Thank you.

The police that came to my place for those recent welfare checks said I could hand my SN in to a police station- if I later changed my mind. (They didn't- couldn't legally confiscate it without my permission.) I guess N is a little different though- seeing as it's classed as a restricted substance (so, I guess it's illegal.) I think a hospital sounds safer- although- I don't know what details they would need to take- if any. I wonder if you can hand in stuff annonymously...

Personally, I'd want to keep it- if I had it but- I guess if you know it's holding you back from commiting to recovery- that makes sense. Good luck! I hope you can get rid of it without any fuss.

 

[MoreThanAFeeling]

add it to 5 liters of water and spray the ants to give them a good sleep

Creative sir

go into a hospital and drop it in the medical waste bins

I worked in a hospital before.. Medical waste bins are indeed in some rooms but I have no authority to enter these rooms now.. too risky. And the big dumsters outside are locked at all times.

 

[Xta4Love]

I imagine that would be considered 'assisting a suicide' for them- if you use it. That's illegal in most countries. I do understand you're wish. I think we'd all LOVE to get our hands on N but giving it- or, selling it to someone else puts the OP in enormous risk. Ok- authorities may never find out but I'm sure they'll try- and now- it's on a public forum. Presumably you'll need to contact one another and exchange details- leaving a paper trail- unless you're super tech savy and know how to cover all your tracks. Sorry to sound so critical but sadly- suicide and I imagine assisting suicide is dealt with so heavy handedly in this world.

You're right. But his is a decent humane dignified death we're talking about. You dont put N down the fucking drain. That is so offensive I just can't. Save it. Savour it. Maybe for once you get old.

 

[Source Energy]

Only way for me to move on with my life.

Do you think it is safe to do so? Maybe someone can recommend a safer place to dispose of it?!

Gawd! Send it to me. I will reimburse you.

Sorry, mods, but I'm on the edge of ctb and this is a waste of precious N!

 

[Forever Sleep]

You're right. But his is a decent humane dignified death we're talking about. You dont put N down the fucking drain. That is so offensive I just can't. Save it. Savour it. Maybe for once you get old.

Yeah- I'd definitely save it but then- I don't really intend to 'recover'. I guess that's the ultimate way of commiting to life- by removing the means to end it (peacefully at least.)

 

[Xta4Love]

Yeah- I'd definitely save it but then- I don't really intend to 'recover'. I guess that's the ultimate way of commiting to life- by removing the means to end it (peacefully at least.)

Im glad you're going to save it. You have gold in your hands. In my country people spend years to get this kind of death. If it is ever granted at all. If you ever get really ill in your old age you'll be glad to have it. If you really dont want to keep it, find someone in your country who can pick it up. Less paper trial.

 

[Jumper Seoirse]

Creative sir

I worked in a hospital before.. Medical waste bins are indeed in some rooms but I have no authority to enter these rooms now.. too risky. And the big dumsters outside are locked at all times.

I was in A&E in London a few weeks ago with my mum and they are so busy and understaffed when I walked through the only bin I could see was a medical waste so I used that.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Im glad you're going to save it. You have gold in your hands. In my country people spend years to get this kind of death. If it is ever granted at all. If you ever get really ill in your old age you'll be glad to have it. If you really dont want to keep it, find someone in your country who can pick it up. Less paper trial.

God- I wish I had it! No- I mean I would save it if I were them.. I don't have N. I'm far too cowardly to buy anything illegal! I do have SN- better than nothing I suppose.

 

[LittleJem]

I think it's probably against the site rules asking someone else to actually send you a method, Nembutal is an illegal substance anyway, and I don't think the OP would want to break the law by sending it.

Who would know they are breaking the law? They don't have to give their details to anyone. No one will smell it in the post unlike sending weed.

@FuneralCry you are so pro-death and yet so law abiding you might live until you are 100. Makes no sense to me.

You witness the suffering and desperation on this forum every day and yet you would prioritise the 'law' over giving just one person the chance for a peaceful ending.

Also, no one went to jail for receiving SN. It was just confiscated if they gave it up.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

man is flushing liquid gold down the toilet, that shit is worth so fucking much money...