- Nov 7, 2020
I have wanted to CTB for a very long time but I never had the guts to do it. Recently I have been fighting an internal conflict of wanting to die but still wanting to live. I have come to the conclusion that I don’t really want to CTB but I don’t want to live this life anymore. I want a better life. I am starting to have hope that maybe I can live a better life. I’m afraid that i might CTB the day before my life changes for the better. I’m lost. I want to recover and live happily ever after but I don’t want to deal with pro lifers or their short sighted treatment options.