sushisushi12
Member
- Mar 20, 2023
- 10
Hello, I am new here, I don't really know how the site works, it's my first time on a forum, I hope there is no problem with my thread.
I've been in depression for a month now and I got medication from the psychiatrist, antidepressants and antipsychotic medication, to prevent me from self harming. I also suffer from anxiety. I started self-harming 4 years ago, and stopped. Then when I started to feel bad again a month ago I did it again, with sewing scissors. I felt really good but I needed always more, so I had the courage to go buy razor blades, and the feeling when the blade cut my skin, the blood flows from my body, I really love it and I want more. And I have time, because I cannot go to school because of my anxiety, and I am following a school course particularly difficult, so people at my school don't care about me. About a week ago I decided that I wanted to die, I want to bleed out, to cut the veins of my wrists. But something is preventing me from doing it, even if I don't really care that there is people that care about me in my surroundings, I cannot die now, I don't know why.
Thanks for reading me, and I hope that all of you can find peace.
I've been in depression for a month now and I got medication from the psychiatrist, antidepressants and antipsychotic medication, to prevent me from self harming. I also suffer from anxiety. I started self-harming 4 years ago, and stopped. Then when I started to feel bad again a month ago I did it again, with sewing scissors. I felt really good but I needed always more, so I had the courage to go buy razor blades, and the feeling when the blade cut my skin, the blood flows from my body, I really love it and I want more. And I have time, because I cannot go to school because of my anxiety, and I am following a school course particularly difficult, so people at my school don't care about me. About a week ago I decided that I wanted to die, I want to bleed out, to cut the veins of my wrists. But something is preventing me from doing it, even if I don't really care that there is people that care about me in my surroundings, I cannot die now, I don't know why.
Thanks for reading me, and I hope that all of you can find peace.