Hey all,
Since the SedalVet route is most likely a no-go, I think I've found another way to achieve the escape that I so desperately need. Gathering the resources will...tricky at best.
I moved to South Carolina a few weeks back. There's far more access to drugs down here than where I lived prior. I had hopes that I could start a new life with my partner, but I was more or less a fool to think that things would shift. I've had some additional issues arise that further confirm that I should be off this rock as soon as possible. I'm nothing more than a stupid, defective entity.
My new plan is to seek out those who deal Fentanyl and Xanax. I've never looked for dealers before, so this is something I'm going to have to figure out. Apparently, the mix of Fentanyl, Xanax, and liquor in high doses can result in an OD whilst asleep. You wouldn't even feel your heart stop. I need this.
If I'm even lucky enough to acquire the above, then I plan to drive out to the middle of nowhere in SC (preferably deep in the forests), take the Fentanyl and Xanax with a little pre-gamer of whiskey, and continue drinking until I black out. Hopefully, that would be lethal enough for me to pass in my sleep. I'd be equally hopeful that my body would never be found either. Let it go back to nature where it belongs. Let everyone in my life forget about me as time progresses. Anything, as long as this never-ending well of shame and grief stops. I'm nothing anyways. I'm defective at best, and I was never made for this world.
Now to do some research...
Since the SedalVet route is most likely a no-go, I think I've found another way to achieve the escape that I so desperately need. Gathering the resources will...tricky at best.
I moved to South Carolina a few weeks back. There's far more access to drugs down here than where I lived prior. I had hopes that I could start a new life with my partner, but I was more or less a fool to think that things would shift. I've had some additional issues arise that further confirm that I should be off this rock as soon as possible. I'm nothing more than a stupid, defective entity.
My new plan is to seek out those who deal Fentanyl and Xanax. I've never looked for dealers before, so this is something I'm going to have to figure out. Apparently, the mix of Fentanyl, Xanax, and liquor in high doses can result in an OD whilst asleep. You wouldn't even feel your heart stop. I need this.
If I'm even lucky enough to acquire the above, then I plan to drive out to the middle of nowhere in SC (preferably deep in the forests), take the Fentanyl and Xanax with a little pre-gamer of whiskey, and continue drinking until I black out. Hopefully, that would be lethal enough for me to pass in my sleep. I'd be equally hopeful that my body would never be found either. Let it go back to nature where it belongs. Let everyone in my life forget about me as time progresses. Anything, as long as this never-ending well of shame and grief stops. I'm nothing anyways. I'm defective at best, and I was never made for this world.
Now to do some research...
