I think I gonna kill myself because of the shit life syndrome

[noname223]

Today I read a German article on the UK. They described that many people in UK are affected by this syndrome. I link another article to sum it up better. Though I think in many places around the world there are people affected by it.

What is sh*t life syndrome?

Some time ago Journalist Sarah O'Conner wrote a piece for the UK’s Financial Times Newspaper that explored the multiple overlapping problems that people face living in Blackpool, England. In this economically depressed part of the country, a combination of economic, historic, social and cultural...

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"In this economically depressed part of the country, a combination of economic, historic, social and cultural factors all combine to make life harder and harder for people for whom life was already hard."

"They are used, to sum up a situation where an individual has so many challenges that even finding a foothold to begin to make positive changes is impossible with so many other, remaining factors pulling them down and keeping them stuck."

"He believes Sh*t Life Syndrome is a problem society is all too quick to medicate with anti-depressants instead of trying to make the enduring but much more challenging and expensive interventions that are needed."

I don't make a case against medication. Personally I benefited from medication a lot. Though the shit life syndrome also affects me. Especially my future life that will drive me to commit suicide. I am unable to get a stable income, my condition makes it extremely hard to find a partner, there is barely hope to get better etc. I have a lot of issues, these accumulate instead of being solved. Only throwing medication at me won't solve my problems. But it is cheaper for the society. I feel abandoned by the society with my shit ton of complex problems. I need real substantial financial help but all I get is a useless suicide hotline which rather tries to ease the symptoms instead of solving the roots of my problem. Though seemingly I am not worth enough for this society. I have tried 3 psychotherapies and had several clinic stays my problems are just unable to solve. Some therapists also gave me up. I gonna kill myself because of all of this shit.

I know in other countries the living conditions are even worse though poverty is always relative. I will see how the dreams of my friends will become true while I live in constant misery. I worry so much because I unable to change the outcome. I have such an extreme anxiety about a relapse and its consequences. So incredible horrible things will happen. Everything moves in slow motion, I have to witness how it develops while being stuck in it knowing which immense pain awaits me.

Fuck my life. Why did all the fucking abuse happen? I don't deserve all this agony and torture.

 

[Sulyya]

Abandoned by society, yeah....it usually seems that most people don't want the trouble and I get them, really. And then the services or whatever dedicated to helping are either too busy or what they have only helps some people. It would be good if you can find one special place that will help somehow. I'm sorry for what you've gone through, you don't deserve it.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yeah- I'm sure this is a VERY real phenomenon and I'm also sure it's spreading in both the UK and the world. To be honest- I don't come from a very wealthy background but neither from a really struggling area. I've had a reasonable shot in life- mainly down to losing multiple close family members early on, inheriting and using that money for education. Even with that though- I'm struggling. My stupidly chosen profession simply doesn't yield enough work for me to make enough money on. I don't want to quit it all together- so I know I'm going to have to find some other shit job (again) which I know I'll just hate. Seeing as my experience is so narrow and my chosen field is so niche, it's SO hard to just find work. ANY work- so- even someone who has been relatively lucky- with two degrees can struggle like mad. Honestly, I sometimes wonder if it would have been better to have just got a job leaving school- I've ended up in more or less the same place in middle age. Could have saved myself all those tuition fees.

Plus- what I REALLY hate and resent and what you mentioned is- yes- people with 'shit life syndrome' are VERY likely on antidepressants- so that they become numb enough to be able to accept and not resist their shitty life. My friend hates their retail job. They said 1 in 3 people there are on antidepressants! I feel sure I'll need them too if I have to go back to being a wage slave... It's like those damn blue pills in The Matrix. I reckon SOME antidepressants are designed to just stop us from waking up to the true horror/ shittiness of our lives. What kind of life is it if you need drugs to make it bearable?!!

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really awful what you've been through, it's undeniably such a cruel world that we exist in where people suffer all through no fault of their own. To me it's insulting when people suggest things like suicide hotlines as ways to solve everything and fix problems, words cannot take away any of the real suffering that exists. Those people are certainly in denial of the fact that wanting suicide is a perfectly logical response to existing in such a hellish world.