Method I think I found it(update)

[dwindlingfirst]

A family member I currently live with is getting a gun soon, so my plan is that either I go through with hanging or I sneak out into the woods with that gun.

I thought I was getting better, I hadn't cut in about 3 days, but then I've been losing sleep, my night paranoia kept me up nearly all night last night and I'm worried it'll be bad again tonight. I just want the pain to end, whether it's through something in this life or by my suicide. I probably won't get better, but either way, the pain will end.

 

[Charlie-Bravo]

Yea, same. On nighttime I get depressed and think about all the shitty stuff about my life, but when I need to wake up, I just want to get back to my dreamworld, that my brain made up. What a fucked up situation :(

 

[dofogry]

Gun definetly MUCH better than hanging. Chances of success is much higher and its quick. I wish i had the money to get a gun (not too easy here in brazil).

 

[anxietyman221]

Mine is absolutely opposite. My nights are good and filled with positive thoughts. While my mornings are getting worse.

 

[CursedReality88]

If you care about that family member, you might end up making them feel guilty and responsible for your death.

 

[dofogry]

If you care about that family member, you might end up making them feel guilty and responsible for your death.

Family members will always feel guilty about suicide of a relative, it doesnt matter what you use. They will always think about they did wrong, what they should have done to avoid it, all those things are part of one the stages of grief.

 

[CursedReality88]

Family members will always feel guilty about suicide of a relative, it doesnt matter what you use. They will always think about they did wrong, what they should have done to avoid it, all those things are part of one the stages of grief.

This case is different tho imo. They just bought the gun which OP is stealing asap to ctb with. It's like providing OP with the ctb method. Not your typical "oh I should've been there more for them" scenario. Again it's up to OP tho and I think they should consider it before acting.

 

[dofogry]

This case is different tho imo. They just bought the gun which OP is stealing asap to ctb with. It's like providing OP with the ctb method. Not your typical "oh I should've been there more for them" scenario. Again it's up to OP tho and I think they should consider it before acting.

I understand what you are saying but still that "i should have done everything different" will always be a thing for them.

But at the end of the day i dont think we should matter about what happen here in earth. I dont believe in god, spirits of anything like that. So we wont see anyone suffering here ou suffer for what we did. Everything will be gone, all the emotions, thoughts... Let the living take care of that.

I have a mom, a grandma, they all love me, but i cant think about that or that will stop me from ending this agony.

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that those with access to guns to ctb with are fortunate despite it not being my most ideal method, it must be a relief having that method option and knowing that you aren't trapped here, I wish you the best with your plans.

 

[CarambaAlbum]

I think that those with access to guns to ctb with are fortunate despite it not being my most ideal method, it must be a relief having that method option and knowing that you aren't trapped here, I wish you the best with your plans.

Agreed, many people here are in countries with strict gun laws where only farmers can own them (as well as the police/army/ect). It must be a blessing to have such a quick, almost painless way to go with a high chance of success. Good luck with everything, OP.

 

[angel31]

Having access to a gun is so lucky and it is way better then hanging. But I think the point @CursedReality88 raised is a good one… thats a really difficult situation…
I am so sorry you have to go through all of this shit <3
Do you know what kind of gun it is?
Love

 

[dwindlingfirst]

Having access to a gun is so lucky and it is way better then hanging. But I think the point @CursedReality88 raised is a good one… thats a really difficult situation…
I am so sorry you have to go through all of this shit <3
Do you know what kind of gun it is?
Love

I think it's an ar-15, but the person who's getting it has only referred to it as a wasser(idk what gun that is)

 

[lebrodude]

If your family member can acquire a gun is there any reason you can't ?

 

[dwindlingfirst]

If your family member can acquire a gun is there any reason you can't ?

They'd be suspicious, as they know I'm depressed and such

 

[Charlie-Bravo]

wasser(idk what gun that is)

You mean WASR? It is a romanian AKM. Maybe a bit bulky, but higher caliber means higher success rate of ctb :)

 

[dwindlingfirst]

You mean WASR? It is a romanian AKM. Maybe a bit bulky, but higher caliber means higher success rate of ctb :)

Yeah that's the one, thanks man