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AtomicWaffles

AtomicWaffles

hxppy thxughts
Dec 15, 2023
90
I just can never find a reason why I should, what purpose do I serve that makes me of any value to get up and do things everyday? I often find myself just laying there looking at the roof just waiting for my time to CTB whenever it may come, and the continuous painful feeling that I am going to cry yet I don't is so painful and continues to rip me to shreds everyday of my miserable life that I only wish to be freed from. I just want to lay down one final time and just never wake up, just do not wake up the following morning, I need to cry but I can't. I just want to go and soon I will, just can't yet and because of that I suffer and struggle to get up. I just want people to understand since when people ask I just have to give them a false all is good.
 
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Electric1

Electric1

Student
Dec 18, 2023
102
I need to cry but I can't.
Can relate to this, always end up just halting myself or telling myself in my head that it's unjustified to cry and stop.
 
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Lostindespair3

Member
Dec 13, 2023
47
I just can never find a reason why I should, what purpose do I serve that makes me of any value to get up and do things everyday? I often find myself just laying there looking at the roof just waiting for my time to CTB whenever it may come, and the continuous painful feeling that I am going to cry yet I don't is so painful and continues to rip me to shreds everyday of my miserable life that I only wish to be freed from. I just want to lay down one final time and just never wake up, just do not wake up the following morning, I need to cry but I can't. I just want to go and soon I will, just can't yet and because of that I suffer and struggle to get up. I just want people to understand since when people ask I just have to give them a false all is good.
I relate SO much to all of this. It all feels so pointless…I literally can't get up. And I feel like crying- the situation warrants it- but I don't/can't….its probably the fing meds- have me all numbed out in a way.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,478
It's certainly very much understandable just never waking again, the peace of an eternal and dreamless sleep really is all I wish for as well. It would be such a relief if the option is there to just never wake, I get that it's so dreadful continuing to wake when you wish to be gone.
 
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Dmoore3232

Dmoore3232

Experienced
Jun 20, 2023
202
Could be your thyroid, try iodine and tyrosine supplements, they make the thyroid hormone.
 
Ash’Girl

Ash’Girl

Girl, Interrupted
Apr 29, 2022
386
Absolutely get this. Of late I've just been staying in bed and feeling completely unable to get out of it (I have to for work, but I just put the messenger app we use on my phone so it looks like I'm online and don't actually drag myself to my laptop until a few hours after I'm supposed to start 🙄). I'm usually ok when I get going and end up working late because when I stop I immediately want to go hide in bed and never come out again. So I make my time up I guess.

I am off over Christmas and New Year and I probably will only get out of bed to goto the bathroom 😞
 
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BlazingBob

BlazingBob

Wizard
Oct 28, 2021
609
I deal with extreme exhaustion because of my health problems and spend the majority of my time in bed and isolated. I want nothing more than to be dead.
 
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vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
429
When I got home from work today I sat on the step to take my boots off and just couldn't. Ended up lying there on the cold, hard floor until I was freezing. Totally despondent.
 
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idonothing

idonothing

Member
Dec 13, 2023
40
The only thing that gets me out of bed after waking up is the urge to smoke a cigarette and the need to feed my cat.
 
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Alltheywanted

Alltheywanted

Nobody knows what I see
Mar 6, 2023
331
I'm with you on this. Nothing is as pleasant as sleep, a state in which all my problems disappear.
 
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Nightwillalwayswin

Nightwillalwayswin

Member
May 3, 2020
84
I feel you so much. I've had SO many days in bed this year. I've been in bed the past 2 days and HATE that I have to get up tomorrow. It makes me so anxious I want to throw up. I just want to lie here and fade away.
 
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Abyssal

Abyssal

Probably gonna die soon maybe?
Nov 26, 2023
1,331
Feeling this right now.
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
1,181
yeah, I've had a lot of trouble with getting out of bed recently too~ If I don't have to work or got to college or something, it's so difficult! >_< I just want to be unconscious forever~ It's more pleasant than anything else~ I'm sure you'd agree~
 
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AtomicWaffles

AtomicWaffles

hxppy thxughts
Dec 15, 2023
90
yeah, I've had a lot of trouble with getting out of bed recently too~ If I don't have to work or got to college or something, it's so difficult! >_< I just want to be unconscious forever~ It's more pleasant than anything else~ I'm sure you'd agree~
Very much yes
 
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Jolene79

Experienced
Jun 16, 2023
205
I deal with extreme exhaustion because of my health problems and spend the majority of my time in bed and isolated. I want nothing more than to be dead.
I totally relate to this. My pain and distress is so severe I have to drag myself up onto the sofa where I don't move all day. I want more than nothing some escape from constant sickness
 
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Levia@than

Levia@than

They/Them
Dec 20, 2023
23
One thing that helps for me personally is making a checklist. Just a list of small tasks that make you feel accomplished and motivated. Obviously your list might vary but some of the things on my list are "eat breakfast" and "read a chapter of a book". And if you complete all of the items on your list,, you can treat yourself to something nice. I would recommend taking some time to put together your own list and see if it helps you.
 
kettlevinbarq

kettlevinbarq

I'm Tired
Dec 12, 2023
100
ugh same I feel like I'm just rotting away. I can feel my muscles atrophying.
 
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