I still haven't decided on the method I'm going to use...

[Mandyblack]

I still haven't decided on the method I'm going to use, but it will probably be w medications.
I don't think I have another alternative that is accessible to me.
I think about getting the meds, going to the woods and dying there. I don't know, I'm uncertain about that.

 

[CarpeJugulum]

what meds? remember, just because people can die from something doesn't mean it's a good method

 

[Huntfish34]

Depends on what kind of medications you are talking about? Many of them probably won't kill you, leaving you worse off than before. Please think about this before you try anything.

I wish you the best in whatever may happen.

 

[Mandyblack]

what meds? remember, just because people can die from something doesn't mean it's a good method

antidepressants, antipsychotics, clonazepam...

 

[CarpeJugulum]

i mean a lot of substances cause vomiting and discomfort, with no guarantee of death. be careful

 

[Mandyblack]

What types of medic

i mean a lot of substances cause vomiting and discomfort, with no guarantee of death. be careful

What types of medication could I use????

 

[CarpeJugulum]

isn't that what the forum is for? post a bit, browse, find out what suits you best. Overall not many actual medications are useful, as they're made to be safe

 

[MidnightDream]

Could you OD on those meds? Possibly.
Would it be comfortable? Highly unlikely.
You're looking at vomiting, pain, some serious discomfort and that's if you're successful.
Clonazepam is likely to be your best bet as a benzo but even then, I really wouldn't recommend it.
Drug ODs are not recommended on this site because the chance of succeeding is low and the chance of ending up with permanent damage is incredibly high.
It's not a risk I'd personally want to take, but it's your decision.
Here are some sites that discuss the symptoms you would likely experience aswell as the risks of long term damage.
Antidepressant overdose
Antipsychotic overdose
Clonazepam overdose & Benzos in general

 

[Mandyblack]

Could you OD on those meds? Possibly.
Would it be comfortable? Highly unlikely.
You're looking at vomiting, pain, some serious discomfort and that's if you're successful.
Clonazepam is likely to be your best bet as a benzo but even then, I really wouldn't recommend it.
Drug ODs are not recommended on this site because the chance of succeeding is low and the chance of ending up with permanent damage is incredibly high.
It's not a risk I'd personally want to take, but it's your decision.
Here are some sites that discuss the symptoms you would likely experience aswell as the risks of long term damage.
Antidepressant overdose
Antipsychotic overdose
Clonazepam overdose & Benzos in general

Shit. I don't know what to do

 

[MidnightDream]

Shit. I don't know what to do

I'm sorry :( but I'd rather give it to you straight and let you make an educated decision rather than letting you run the risk of just harming yourself permanently.
There are other options out there, there's some great ones detailed on this site, try not to panic. If you wanna ctb for good, you gotta do it right

 

[FuneralCry]

As said above, with methods all that anyone can do is look at the method resources and information and decide what is best for themselves. I personally think that it's important to do lots of research to reduce the chance of methods failing. But I do understand having limited access to ways to ctb. To me it's unfair how it can be so difficult to leave this life behind, people have already suffered enough so they shouldn't have to struggle in finding ways to leave this world.
I wish you freedom.

 

[Mandyblack]

I'm sorry :( but I'd rather give it to you straight and let you make an educated decision rather than letting you run the risk of just harming yourself permanently.
There are other options out there, there's some great ones detailed on this site, try not to panic. If you wanna ctb for good, you gotta do it right

Thank you so much I'll think about it a little more and decide which method is better

 

[universe]

I think it may be necessary to take a step back on these things. Making a decision in a hurry doesn't seem like the best idea. There is a lot of documentation on all the methods on the forum.

But, I easily understand your distress. Finding a method is not easy : between the question of pain, the accessibility or not of CTB means depending on the country, the cost, the success rate...
I myself hesitated and changed the method in the meantime: I had gone to H, then as it was too complicated to obtain, I switched to SN. Finally, as I was afraid of not being able to get some, I seriously considered the partial hanging. Finally I returned to the SN whereas originally I absolutely didn't want this type of method. And I still continue to research this.
During all this time, I was particularly anxious: afraid of not having a reliable method, afraid of being stuck on Earth.

Good luck

 

[Mandyblack]

I think it may be necessary to take a step back on these things. Making a decision in a hurry doesn't seem like the best idea. There is a lot of documentation on all the methods on the forum.

But, I easily understand your distress. Finding a method is not easy : between the question of pain, the accessibility or not of CTB means depending on the country, the cost, the success rate...
I myself hesitated and changed the method in the meantime: I had gone to H, then as it was too complicated to obtain, I switched to SN. Finally, as I was afraid of not being able to get some, I seriously considered the partial hanging. Finally I returned to the SN whereas originally I absolutely didn't want this type of method. And I still continue to research this.
During all this time, I was particularly anxious: afraid of not having a reliable method, afraid of being stuck on Earth.

Good luck

I'm scared, you know? I'm afraid of pain, I'm afraid of failing

 

[universe]

It's completely understandable. These fears are quite rational I think it's part of the IS. But I imagine that it's also due to our suffering, to our distress that we experience every day. CTB is something special, definitive and so singular. I have no idea what will really happen when the time comes, if I'm going to die or what. I don't even know if I would have the courage to do it when the time comes.

 

[Sad_Sack]

antidepressants, antipsychotics, clonazepam...

Please do not try to OD on antidepressants. It is not easy to do and even if you succeed it will be long and extremely uncomfortable. Same goes for antipsychotics. Horrendously uncomfortable and likely to fail and you have a high possibility of triggering some kind of nightmarish movement disorder forever. Best bet out of those 3 would be the benzos but they are also hard to die from, especially from vomiting. It really does suck that it's so freaking difficult. That's why everyone would love to get their hands on N. It seems to be the only reliably peaceful med you can use.

 

[Mandyblack]

Please do not try to OD on antidepressants. It is not easy to do and even if you succeed it will be long and extremely uncomfortable. Same goes for antipsychotics. Horrendously uncomfortable and likely to fail and you have a high possibility of triggering some kind of nightmarish movement disorder forever. Best bet out of those 3 would be the benzos but they are also hard to die from, especially from vomiting. It really does suck that it's so freaking difficult. That's why everyone would love to get their hands on N. It seems to be the only reliably peaceful med you can use.

But for me the problem is how to get the N

Please do not try to OD on antidepressants. It is not easy to do and even if you succeed it will be long and extremely uncomfortable. Same goes for antipsychotics. Horrendously uncomfortable and likely to fail and you have a high possibility of triggering some kind of nightmarish movement disorder forever. Best bet out of those 3 would be the benzos but they are also hard to die from, especially from vomiting. It really does suck that it's so freaking difficult. That's why everyone would love to get their hands on N. It seems to be the only reliably peaceful med you can us

Please do not try to OD on antidepressants. It is not easy to do and even if you succeed it will be long and extremely uncomfortable. Same goes for antipsychotics. Horrendously uncomfortable and likely to fail and you have a high possibility of triggering some kind of nightmarish movement disorder forever. Best bet out of those 3 would be the benzos but they are also hard to die from, especially from vomiting. It really does suck that it's so freaking difficult. That's why everyone would love to get their hands on N. It seems to be the only reliably peaceful med you can use.

But for me the problem is how to get the N

 

[Sad_Sack]

But for me the problem is how to get the N



But for me the problem is how to get the N

Oh yeah. I wasn't saying why don't you just go pick up a bottle. It really is frustrating as he'll that it's pretty much unobtainable. I have a feeling that a very high percent of the posts here that claim to have gotten some are phony. I could be wrong but I'm pretty confident on that. Its also extremely frustrating that there isn't simply more substances that can bring about a swift and peaceful death.

 

[Mandyblack]

Oh yeah. I wasn't saying why don't you just go pick up a bottle. It really is frustrating as he'll that it's pretty much unobtainable. I have a feeling that a very high percent of the posts here that claim to have gotten some are phony. I could be wrong but I'm pretty confident on that. Its also extremely frustrating that there isn't simply more substances that can bring about a swift and peaceful death.

It's very frustrating because most of the easiest methods like with a gun are completely inaccessible to me.

 

[makethepainstop]

I still haven't decided on the method I'm going to use, but it will probably be w medications.
I don't think I have another alternative that is accessible to me.
I think about getting the meds, going to the woods and dying there. I don't know, I'm uncertain about that.

Data data data, research is your friend. Check and confirm ways and means. Find your way, many means are available to a sincere seeker. Love to all.

 

[Sad_Sack]

It's very frustrating because most of the easiest methods like with a gun are completely inaccessible to me.

Same. I was in a 52/50 hold and lost the right to ever purchase a firearm again in my life. Honestly, besides N a gun is the only other easy way to go in my opinion. I'm in the process if trying to settle on the most acceptably uncomfortable method I can accept meaning they are less than desirable. Once I have it ill need all of the components ready to go on a moments notice as I can't schedule my exit ahead of time. I know from experience that for me it has to be just the right moment when the frustration is at a fever pitch and I'm at a breaking point.

 

[quietam pacem12]

Ich habe mich noch nicht für eine Methode entschieden, die ich anwenden werde, aber es werden wahrscheinlich Medikamente sein.
Ich glaube nicht, dass ich eine andere Alternative habe, die für mich zugänglich ist.
Ich denke daran, die Medikamente zu besorgen, in den Wald zu gehen und dort zu sterben. Ich weiß es nicht, da bin ich mir unsicher.

Üerlege dir gut wie du es machst. Es muß für dich gut sein und du musst dich damit sicher fühlen.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Heroin and Fentanyl are good drug options for ctb. They're street drugs, so you just need to find someone selling them. It's easy to overdose on either of them based on the number of people who accidentally do it every day. It should be a relatively peaceful death, too. Just need to make sure you're not found too soon, since you can be revived with Narcan.