I still feel suicidal but I don't engage anymore.
I've had four long years of being very suicidal. Medication, psych ward, talk therapy. Nothing worked. I researched many methods and I have done some attempts. Most on impulse.
But lately I can distance myself better from my suicidal thoughts. I learned in DGT therapy to use a cold shower and breathing exercises to get me through the worse. I learned being mindfull of my thoughts and take a steps back and just observe and not act. It is very hard. But I got a little control back. I still feel deep despair. But the attempst have stopped. Last one was 6 months ago. I still dont trust myself fully. It has not been that long ago. Its small steps. It takes time. A lot of time.
I've had four long years of being very suicidal. Medication, psych ward, talk therapy. Nothing worked. I researched many methods and I have done some attempts. Most on impulse.
But lately I can distance myself better from my suicidal thoughts. I learned in DGT therapy to use a cold shower and breathing exercises to get me through the worse. I learned being mindfull of my thoughts and take a steps back and just observe and not act. It is very hard. But I got a little control back. I still feel deep despair. But the attempst have stopped. Last one was 6 months ago. I still dont trust myself fully. It has not been that long ago. Its small steps. It takes time. A lot of time.
