Venting i should've did it back in Tokyo

[Leonard_Bangley39]

i never should've left Tokyo. i should've ctb back then. i should've jumped off a building or od'ed on pills and alcohol or jumped in front of a train. it would've been perfect. i would've ended my story at it's peak, it's climax, it's best point. last month when i was cutting myself and i accidentally hit a vein i should've just let it kill me instead of getting stitches. when i got hit by a car while crossing the street last year, i wish that driver was going faster so i could've died. but now I'm just stuck here in this life, without the guts or motivation to ctb