I should leave this forum

[fox_wannabe]

I do not want this forum to weigh on my decision If I want to go or stay. It was nice to meet you all. It is possibly too much of responsibility to take my own life. I will know when to die when time comes. There is no need for me to resent life more than I need to. I have no idea If I can improve my life. And If I even know what should my life look like.

I will for now log off. I am still not sure If I should completely disable my account.

 

[Snake of Eden]

We will miss you. All the best <3

 

[forgotten15]

I wish you all the best and may things work out like you want them to :)

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always liked reading your posts. You seem like a nice person. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[Jenjoh2358]

Cheerio, @fox_wannabe.

Best of luck to your future

 

[kurisutinabestgirl]

I am glad you are still with us.
Although I haven't known you for long, it was great to have you on this forum. Wish you the best with your future ^_^! o7

 

[シルエット]

I am happy you are still here too. I wish you the best of luck.
<3

 

[chocolatebar]

I understand how you feel, because I also think suicide is an extremely personal decision and shouldn't be influenced by anything. Sorry if the forum is bringing you down. That's not the purpose of this place.

Know that you will be missed and that there's nothing wrong in coming here occasionally if you want.

Have the best of luck!

 

[KuriGohan&Kamehameha]

I hope you can find a bit of happiness in your time away, I'll be rooting for you from afar and wishing you the best.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Kind of a shame. Was starting to enjoy seeing you around here. You're an intelligent and kind hearted individual and I feel you deserve a better life than the one you currently have. That said, I wish you luck in your future. You take care....

 

[Midgardsorm]

Be well, Fox.

We are always here for you if you ever decide to come back.

 

[WrongPlaceWrongTime]

You are more than welcome here if you decide to return. Peaceful travels

 

[ReallyTired]

Wishing you the best. Shame, we didn't get to talk. You seem like a nice, caring person. Btw, I love the music you posted.

 

[motel rooms]

I will know when to die when time comes. There is no need for me to resent life more than I need to.

I relate to this. Good luck, foxy!

 

[LastLoveLetter]

I love that track by The Cinematic Orchestra, it's so beautiful and a fitting parting song to leave behind.

We all deserve better than the circumstances that led us to SS. I am sorry for the pain that brought you here and can identify with your reasons for choosing to leave this place.

I truly wish you all the best no matter what happens. I hope you find peace on your own terms when your time comes. Until then, I hope you find some much deserved goodness in your life before that day arrives. Take care.

 

[BrokenHopes]

I wish you all the best. That you will find what you are looking for and need. Will really miss seeing you around!!

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I wish you the best out there no matter your choice

 

[Marktheghost]

Why not stay for the support? Or even to offer support to other people?

 

[MrOptions]

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Godspeed

 

[ClownMe]

I wish you the best of luck, you will be missed on here

 

[fox_wannabe]

I still want to ctb... It all feels pointless. I am back I guess. I was just at my maniac "happy" phase...
sorry to bother you

 

[avoid_slow_death]

I still want to ctb... It all feels pointless. I am back I guess. I was just at my maniac "happy" phase...

Welcome back. And guess what? We love you regardless. ❤

 

[Painless_end]

I know how you feel

Personally taking my life is too much responsibility for me as well.

It's definitely not as easy as it seems when we are at our lowest. Survival Instinct is not a joke.

I am tired too but guess what I am stuck with this crap.

I wish I could just say "Oh let me make the most of it and be happy internally"

But it's not that simple.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I know how you feel

Personally taking my life is too much responsibility for me as well.

It's definitely not as easy as it seems when we are at our lowest. Survival Instinct is not a joke.

I am tired too but guess what I am stuck with this crap.

I wish I could just say "Oh let me make the most of it and be happy internally"

But it's not that simple.

Yeah. It is just I have not enough hope for trying anymore. I think I found out something. Because I followed Sn regime 2 times and didn't drink It.

It is not that my family is stopping me. It is me who is projecting onto them. I very love my family but everything outside of my family is shit. They help me as much as they can but I am broken and I cannot be fixed. I just know that no matter how much them may love me, I will still suffer as neet or depressed person.

I have to make peace with the fact that I will leave them, which is soul crushing. They loved me but too many things went wrong and now I am stuck and cannot get out.

 

[Amumu]

Welcome back

 

[fox_wannabe]

Welcome back

Thanks ammu my fav mummy <3

 

[eternalmelancholy]

Yeah I get what you mean. I feel like I have overstayed my welcome as well. I already have all the necessary information to ctb. Posting here all the time is just delaying the inevitable.

 

[fox_wannabe]

Yeah I get what you mean. I feel like I have overstayed my welcome as well. I already have all the necessary information to ctb. Posting here all the time is just delaying the inevitable.

I partially do mean that but I think It is not only about how fast you go, the way and mindset is equally important. I want to feel like a dog being put to sleep. Not like a prisoner hanging himself in his cell. And being here makes me more comfortable.

 

[Smart No More]

Hi. Could I ask a question? I see the term 'neet' used and can't work out what it refers too. I know you're not referring to tidiness or smartness ha. Could you enlighten me? :)