Venting I should have died already

[Aphid]

I'm so fucked. I tried to attempt again and I couldn't do it. I was too scared. Why why why why why I did it just fine before, I did it just fine, now im just fucked. There's no way out until I lower my moral further and calm down.

I genuinely need this to happen. I am a worthless piece of shit. I am nothing. I am just a monster, a terrible thing that shouldn't exist. A let down to everyone around me. Everyone's leaving and angry around me. I'm a failure. the world is fucking horrible right now, they want me dead. They all want me dead, everyone wants me dead I just want to die let me die please stop telling me that things will get better please please I just need this. I need this. I need to end my worthless piece of shit existence soon. please. please.
please make it stop. fuck. Theagony

 

[suimaxxer]

bro is just like me

 

[Aphid]

im sorry for that

 

[tonicer]

I feel the same. I should have died before i was even born. I had my umbilical cord wrapped around my neck. Even before i was fully conscious i wanted to kill myself. I am only still alive today because of my mothers love. Once she's gone i am going to kill myself.

 

[hdead]

I'm so fucked. I tried to attempt again and I couldn't do it. I was too scared. Why why why why why I did it just fine before, I did it just fine, now im just fucked. There's no way out until I lower my moral further and calm down.

I genuinely need this to happen. I am a worthless piece of shit. I am nothing. I am just a monster, a terrible thing that shouldn't exist. A let down to everyone around me. Everyone's leaving and angry around me. I'm a failure. the world is fucking horrible right now, they want me dead. They all want me dead, everyone wants me dead I just want to die let me die please stop telling me that things will get better please please I just need this. I need this. I need to end my worthless piece of shit existence soon. please. please.
please make it stop. fuck. Theagony

I'm sorry you feel that way. I can relate. But I know it helps to calm yourself down a little bit. Make peace with the fact that you want to exit, if that's what you really want. You seem to be in a very heightened emotional state which makes this process only harder.

I wish peace upon your soul. I hope you can push through your fears whatever decision you make. Nobody deserves to go cookie inside their own brain. Trust me, I know how you feel. I've found myself pacing and screaming into pillows more than once before.

 

[Aphid]

I did it before, I was out for 6 minutes but my body automatically forced me up after I started flailing in the shower. I should have died then and honestly all the time now I kinda wish that was when I had died but

 

[iwkmsssb]

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