I sent her a note, it’s been almost 24 hours and she hasn’t seen it

[everlastinghistory]

Last night I came really close to committing. So close that I was worried if I didn't send my note then: I wouldn't be able to later. I didn't end up doing it, but I had sent this one girl who I kinda thought would at least somewhat care a note already.

It's been nearly 24 hours since I sent her that note and it's been left on delivered the entire time. In the text I sent with the note I told her not to worry too much unless I disappeared for over 48 hours because I didn't want to scare her too much so I have some time before I "need" to say anything else.

This morning I couldn't bring myself to check if she had sent anything back, afraid of knowing what her reaction to that would be. Eventually I realized I had to sooner or later and I checked. It was on delivered. After that I ended up deciding not to mention that I hadn't done it yet and to see if she'd respond at all… I regret that now because she still hasn't. It's still on delivered.

I know I didn't really do it but had I… Who knows how long after it was done she would've seen that text. I know she might just be busy but it doesn't sit right with me that she hasn't even seen it.

If she still hasn't responded by tomorrow morning I'll tell her I'm okay. But honestly the idea of her still not having responded by then terrifies me. I love her. If she ever sent me anything like that I'd probably be sending her messages back immediately no matter where I was or what I was doing.

I guess it just hurts to know I could be dead right now and she wouldn't even know it.

 

[BBBB]

I'm dealing with a very similar situation; the person hasn't responded either. I know they received the message. They said they loved me and would never just leave me. I guess they lied :-(

It's haunts me every waking moment!!! I'm really ready to leave this place; today!!!!

 

[Huntfish34]

Ahh damnt man, I agree with you wholeheartedly. Yeah, maybe she is just busy for w/e reason but it's still fairly concerning I think.

I can't bring myself to check on certain normal texts I send, can't even imagine one of them being a " ending note ".. Especially to a chick I was interested in. Keep us updated if possible maybe?

Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen with her. Take care - ♥

 

[Thisisme373]

that's horrible man I'm sorry you're being treated like that, it doesn't surprise me unfortunately with how selfish & cold people are, I really hate this world.

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be really painful being in that situation and not getting a response. I guess that after all you cannot really trust and rely on people, but anyway I wish you the best of luck.

 

[everlastinghistory]

Ahh damnt man, I agree with you wholeheartedly. Yeah, maybe she is just busy for w/e reason but it's still fairly concerning I think.

I can't bring myself to check on certain normal texts I send, can't even imagine one of them being a " ending note ".. Especially to a chick I was interested in. Keep us updated if possible maybe?

Thoughts and prayers to you in whatever may happen with her. Take care - ♥

Since I posted this she's been active on Twitter so she's definitely on her phone. But still on delivered. So… Yeah. Guess she quite possibly really is ignoring me.

 

[Looking]

Can this person preview the message to some degree? Maybe the first sentence was off-putting to them.

 

[everlastinghistory]

Can this person preview the message to some degree? Maybe the first sentence was off-putting to them.

Yeah. She could see the first sentence. She read it as I was sending a second message saying I was okay. She hasn't read the second message yet. Now I'm mostly just worried I may have upset her with the first and she won't think to check for another for a while.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Sometimes people don't know how to respond to things of such a heavy nature and they need to time to reflect before answering.

 

[onceuponadec]

My sister never responds to my text right away. She always takes hours to look. I see this as in my favor as I will be texting her when I ctb. I know she will be to late to stop me.

 

[Kurushii]

It's awful when a friend who you care for a lot and who you thought cared about you only to show that they don't when you'd most need them. But like LaVieEnRose said some news is just too heavy for someone to handle, and they can't take it. Either way, it sort of makes it harder to trust people since they show that they don't care when things like this happen.

 

[Looking]

Yeah. She could see the first sentence. She read it as I was sending a second message saying I was okay. She hasn't read the second message yet. Now I'm mostly just worried I may have upset her with the first and she won't think to check for another for a while.

Why would the first message upset her? Is it just because of the subject matter or did you blame her or something?

 

[everlastinghistory]

Why would the first message upset her? Is it just because of the subject matter or did you blame her or something?

I didn't blame her. I actually tried my best to make it as clear as I could that I didn't blame her and that it was mostly caused by things going on with my family and that happened when I was a kid.

The reason I think it would upset her though is because a while ago she told me if I ever killed myself it would hurt her and she made me promise I wouldn't do it. I didn't make that promise so thankfully I haven't lied to her. All I did was say I'd message her if I was ever considering it seriously. Which I did. But she also seemed to think she would feel like it was her fault when she told me it would hurt her. So I am worried about that to an extent. Definitely tried to stop any chances of her blaming herself but I can't control what she thinks my reasons were.

 

[Looking]

I didn't blame her. I actually tried my best to make it as clear as I could that I didn't blame her and that it was mostly caused by things going on with my family and that happened when I was a kid.

The reason I think it would upset her though is because a while ago she told me if I ever killed myself it would hurt her and she made me promise I wouldn't do it. I didn't make that promise so thankfully I haven't lied to her. All I did was say I'd message her if I was ever considering it seriously. Which I did. But she also seemed to think she would feel like it was her fault when she told me it would hurt her. So I am worried about that to an extent. Definitely tried to stop any chances of her blaming herself but I can't control what she thinks my reasons were.

You're 100% right about that. If you didn't make that promise then you're not entitled to obey by that guideline. Still, it sounds like you did everything right and it still ended kinda funky for you. Sorry man.

 

[don't want it]

Promises are broken unfortunately, my partner promised me that we would go back to live together in a short period and now he is ignoring me and not even interested in my death

 

[Dino_flower]

It's hurts a ton. I had done the same but lucky for me, someone had the heart to care. I painfully think that people believe I'm seeking for attention(which they do). Everyday, life pushes me a little more towards ctb and sometimes I'm so close that I send last notes to the one person who cares. I hope you find comfort and solace in whatever you're doing.

 

[Inferno]

Last night I came really close to committing. So close that I was worried if I didn't send my note then: I wouldn't be able to later. I didn't end up doing it, but I had sent this one girl who I kinda thought would at least somewhat care a note already.

It's been nearly 24 hours since I sent her that note and it's been left on delivered the entire time. In the text I sent with the note I told her not to worry too much unless I disappeared for over 48 hours because I didn't want to scare her too much so I have some time before I "need" to say anything else.

To be honest, what did you expect? Girls nowadays get hundreds of messages from people they don't care about because they literally live life on easy mode. You could kill yourself in front of a woman and she would only care about herself. No woman actually gives a fuck about anyone, especially men. The brutal reality of life is that nobody cares about you and no one is there to save you, that's why all anti-suicide propaganda is all the same shit "we love you" "we care about you" "you're valued" but if you're not actively on the verge of death none of those things are true, nobody gives a fuck about you until you're gone. And even when you do die nobody will care about you after a week and you will be forgotten as another death statistic among the millions each year.

I know I didn't really do it but had I… Who knows how long after it was done she would've seen that text. I know she might just be busy but it doesn't sit right with me that she hasn't even seen it.

If a girl ever tells you she was busy she's lying, she knows you sent her the text, she just doesn't care because she was probably texting someone more attractive or valuable than you.

If she still hasn't responded by tomorrow morning I'll tell her I'm okay.

You shouldn't, if she doesn't care enough to respond to a text indicating that you're literally about to die she's not worth your time, you're worth more than her.

I love her. If she ever sent me anything like that I'd probably be sending her messages back immediately no matter where I was or what I was doing.

This is your problem, you're wasting all of what you're worth on some girl who barely cares about you, find someone else who's actually worth your time and love. Because she clearly doesn't deserve it.

I apologise if my reply sounds confrontational but that's not my intent, I'm just trying to tell you to get over her because she's only going to make you feel worse. You're worth more than that. I wish you the best of luck.

 

[noonipie]

im sorry, i hope you find people who care about you and are worth your affection. dealing with the same shit.