i felt like that. When I was 17. Father had a gf that was emotionally abusive. I knew this wasn't gonna be it for me. I worked for 2 years then applied to a university. When I got in I had saved enough to afford boarding and about 1 year of living expenses. For the other remaining years I took a student loan to (university tuition is free in my country and the term is 3 years). I used education as my tool to get out. I no longer live in my awful country of birth nor have to keep up poor relationships for appearances. Idk where u are from. Hopefully u have the same opportunity re: free tertiary education tuition costs. If not, try to set up another plan where u can use savings u accumulated over x (2 or 3) years to leave where u are for good. Example, I think once u have maybe 16,000 canadian saved u almost gauranteed to be able to move there. I think some European countries (Australia as well if i recall) are/have implementing/implemented policies to attract people due to having an aging population and/or low birth rate dilemna. Try to see if you find any options and we can discuss what may be the best 3 to go with (off course u will settle on one overtime.... imo its best to always have options though just in case).