He's so fucking stupid. I try to give him warning signs and he doesn't take me seriously. I stay in bed all day I avoid my homework, I'm failing my classes, im constantly asking for sex to get SOME sort of pleasure. I'm manic and then I'm depressed and then I mask. When I flat out tell him I'm going to ctb he doesn't respond. Says nothing. He still hasn't responded. I have lithium and it's enough to send me off. Maybe he wants me dead. Idk what to do. I have two more weeks left in this semester and then I go back home. I'm not confident I'll make it in this life. My mind is so sick the world will never be able to accommodate for me. I'm not meant to be here. And maybe thisnis his way of telling me he agrees. Maybe I should just block him and forget about him being in my life. I fucking hate people, they never take me seriously.
