I relapsed :[

[RainyPrimadonna]

I had gone nearly a week without SH, but I ended up relapsing yesterday because of something super small. One of my friends was mucking around and he drew fake SH scars on his arms in front of me and my other friends and then claimed he was emo and depressed. None of my other friends were really paying attention to him, so nobody but me really saw and heard him. It's such a stupid thing to relapse over too, I was doing really well at distracting myself from SH but it ended up making me think of it and I relapsed as soon as I got home..

(I know some people can take SH jokes and don't mind them at all, I'm usually okay with them since I feel that they sort of make light of it and I don't feel as out of place. It's just the imitation of cutting himself that got me.)

 

[CellarBoy]

I'll be honest, your friend sounds ridiculously unfunny. Don't worry though, you shouldn't feel ashamed, it's alright, just admit it and keep rolling, you can do it.

 

[LaVieEnRose]

It's understandable that that was a trigger for you. Does your friend know about your history? Is it worth asking him to cut it out? That's a very reasonable thing to ask, but the fact that he made such a lame joke in the first place suggests that he wouldn't understand regardless. But anyway, it's okay that you had a relapse. It may have ended your "streak" but it doesn't negate the work you put it previously.

 

[Galileo3630]

Your "friend" seems like a piece of shit for that. If he doesn't respect you for you and your past, he isn't your friend. When I started cutting myself on both my thighs, my upper and under wrists all of my friends supported me and told me that what I was doing was wrong. They looked at me with sadness in their eyes and it breaks my heart every time thinking back on it. Your so called "friend" doesn't really seem like a friend to me.

 

[Square251]

I'm sorry you had to go through that. It's nothing to be ashamed of, this friend sounds awful honestly. Scars are nothing to joke about and if he had even an ounce of decency, he wouldn't have done such a thing. It's ok, relapses are fine, inevitable even. We just gotta keep getting back up. Take care of yourself bud.