Ive been having ana for like 3-4 years now, never rly severe but I was underweight and hospitalized 5 times in the last 2 years for depression and ana.
Lately everything has started going well for me, im 19, got into uni, but depression literally for no reason started to kick in and then ed shortly afterwards. I also used to drink but got sober due to calories, sadly probably would have still drank if I didnt relapse w ed.
Now I lost quite a 5 kilos in 2 weeks (idk if numbers are allowed here since its pro recovery, so delete my post if its not allowed ig) and dont wanna stop until Im at least at where I was a year and a half ago. Idk if I should ask for a month of hospitalization in september since uni starts in october or just let myself be and hopefully let it get better somehow by itself.
The truth is, even if I do go to hospital I went to before I prob would not wanna eat since Idk if Im ready to recover but If I fuck myself up during uni I might lose everything and that uni is art school so u need to work in there, cant rly just study from a hospital.
Please please give me advice, I rly dont have anyone to give me kind words rn, my parents dont know what to do and kinda approve of me not eating as long as I dont purge (they dont like me at my weight rn ig, im in the middle of overweight and normal rn)
Lately everything has started going well for me, im 19, got into uni, but depression literally for no reason started to kick in and then ed shortly afterwards. I also used to drink but got sober due to calories, sadly probably would have still drank if I didnt relapse w ed.
Now I lost quite a 5 kilos in 2 weeks (idk if numbers are allowed here since its pro recovery, so delete my post if its not allowed ig) and dont wanna stop until Im at least at where I was a year and a half ago. Idk if I should ask for a month of hospitalization in september since uni starts in october or just let myself be and hopefully let it get better somehow by itself.
The truth is, even if I do go to hospital I went to before I prob would not wanna eat since Idk if Im ready to recover but If I fuck myself up during uni I might lose everything and that uni is art school so u need to work in there, cant rly just study from a hospital.
Please please give me advice, I rly dont have anyone to give me kind words rn, my parents dont know what to do and kinda approve of me not eating as long as I dont purge (they dont like me at my weight rn ig, im in the middle of overweight and normal rn)
