**This is just a private vent, no need to reply or interact**
It was very spontaneous, that's how it starts, I felt really weird as in I knew that it wasn't the right thing to do because of the dopamine spikes and everything but I fell for it again. I masturbated. I just sort of write it here to confess or make note or whatever. I took a few medicines afterwards for sleep and stuff, they don't seem to be working very well. I took more than what the usual dose was. Anyhow, that's that. I'll try to sleep now. I am in so much trouble, so much mess. If only suicide was the answer.
My forearms weren't this small before I guess, Neither were my calves.
It was very spontaneous, that's how it starts, I felt really weird as in I knew that it wasn't the right thing to do because of the dopamine spikes and everything but I fell for it again. I masturbated. I just sort of write it here to confess or make note or whatever. I took a few medicines afterwards for sleep and stuff, they don't seem to be working very well. I took more than what the usual dose was. Anyhow, that's that. I'll try to sleep now. I am in so much trouble, so much mess. If only suicide was the answer.
My forearms weren't this small before I guess, Neither were my calves.
