FireFox
Enlightened
- Apr 8, 2020
- 1,745
Last year my life finally getting better at 25 and I experienced real happiness, felt so alive and I was looking forward to the future. I stopped abusing laxatives and food restriction. During that year I fell in love with a much older man who is 30 years older than me. At the time I was 25 and he was 55. He made me feel so special in a way no man ever did. All my life guys ignored me and rejected me and it felt soooo great to have a man finally see me. I really loved him and this year he broke my heart, humiliated me at work and treated me as if I was nothing which was the most painful.
2023 has been worst fucking year ever with so much going wrong in my life. First I was forced to spent the entire January living aboard to see my arsehole relatives in my parents home country. I loved the pandemic travel restrictions because it was pure freedom and happiness never seeing these people anymore. In my family's culture family is everything so I have NO options to cut off these relatives. I hate my mother so much for never letting me stay at home in the UK and always caring about arseholes approval. February I got fired, April my laxatives get discovered my grandmother and sister, my mum doesn't know.
I couldn't cope anymore with the constant things going wrong and heartbreak he caused me so I went to abusing laxatives, diet pills and food restriction. Never again I want to feel anything anymore. I love now being emotionally numb and out of it all the time.
I do not care how upset my anoxeria upsets my grandmother and sister. I refuse treatment and nobody is going to stop me.
2023 has been worst fucking year ever with so much going wrong in my life. First I was forced to spent the entire January living aboard to see my arsehole relatives in my parents home country. I loved the pandemic travel restrictions because it was pure freedom and happiness never seeing these people anymore. In my family's culture family is everything so I have NO options to cut off these relatives. I hate my mother so much for never letting me stay at home in the UK and always caring about arseholes approval. February I got fired, April my laxatives get discovered my grandmother and sister, my mum doesn't know.
I couldn't cope anymore with the constant things going wrong and heartbreak he caused me so I went to abusing laxatives, diet pills and food restriction. Never again I want to feel anything anymore. I love now being emotionally numb and out of it all the time.
I do not care how upset my anoxeria upsets my grandmother and sister. I refuse treatment and nobody is going to stop me.
