Help I really dont know what to do

[TwinFox]

To put it simple. I escaped suicide before, I woke up from my attempt. Survived. Years passed, I got myself on the right track and everything was really working out, I finally met the love of my life after hoping to find her (my Vixey) for most/ if not all of my life, knowing in my head that she was somewhere out there. We found eachother and things were going amazing, I barely had a worry in the world anymore despite everything that had happened to me in the past. One day I suffered a injury and went to doctors, it really didn't seem too severe at time and doctors treated it in that way too. Felt like it was getting better and I remained optimistic but it got worse, went to doctors, hospital, you name it and they've continued to treat my injury as anything but urgent since. I've stressed how much its affecting my life and should have recieved some kind of help by now but no the injury has got severely worse to the point its affecting my every day life and still nothing properly has been done, they said an urgent mri will take place and it still has yet to happen. Its been 6 whole months now since injury and the suicidal thoughts, bad memories, everything has all come back due to the absolute negligence and unwillingness to take things seriously that's taken place, without giving me adequate help, most medial staff have some how come to the conclusion this is more on the psychological side which I can't stress more is severely unjust and incorrect and shocking to say the least. Of course now this has effected me psychologically as this issue is getting worse and worse with each and every passing day and I'm not being given the urgent care I need. I'm so deeply depressed with this and know that if I had just been given the right help I'd never have even found myself in this place. I should be fine by now, forgetting past memories making new ones, finally with the love of my life but the lack of help here as forced me into this place. I live in the UK, and feel if I was anywhere else, I would have gotten the help and necessary scans I needed in the beginning before it all got to this. My suicidal thoughts are back and have been actively making plans in my head but fighting and fighting to stay with my love. I truly love her so much and don't want to leave her behind.

 

[leaf23]

I think you're very brave and the way you constantly try to fight for the one you love is a testament how much you treasure her. I'm glad you have her .
Is it possible to consult a different doctor perhaps? Sometimes finding the right doctor is part of a successful treatment. And for those doctors who insist that your pain is mostly psychological, have they prescribed any kind of treatment for it?

 

[Mirrory Me]

What the injury is about- what kind of symptoms it causes? Being uncertain of situation can be stressful at that point, and if the symptoms causes harm in your daily fuctioning, it may be frustrating to accept them as part of your life.

Being with people who still care for you seems to ease it. Try to be more understanding and compassionate torwards for yourself.

 

[guayabas]

idk what kind of symptoms you're going through, and I can only speak for myself obviously, but becoming disabled or having a big change in your health can be really challenging. but it is possible to adapt and live a happy life still. Again, idk what your symptoms are though, and I know intense chronic pain, for example, makes a lot of ppl understandably suicidal.

Either way I think it's important to continue advocating for your medical care. How was the MRI supposed to get scheduled? Like were you referred somewhere and waiting for a call? Are you on a wait list?

I really hate how most doctors, especially if you're a woman or have any history of mental illness, are lazy and just accuse us of making things up. It's so frustrating bc I hear all the time from ppl that doctors didn't take them seriously about some symptom and then years later they go in for something else and a different doctor discovers something that explains all the symptoms they were told was in their head. Or like ppl are in their 40s when they're finally diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder. Or a doctor tells someone they just need to lose weight and later they find out it was cancer. I hope you get the care you deserve soon

 

[TwinFox]

I think you're very brave and the way you constantly try to fight for the one you love is a testament how much you treasure her. I'm glad you have her .
Is it possible to consult a different doctor perhaps? Sometimes finding the right doctor is part of a successful treatment. And for those doctors who insist that your pain is mostly psychological, have they prescribed any kind of treatment for it?

She means everything to me truly, every day gets harder to get by though as time goes on. She knows about my bad thoughts and is being really supportive, I don't want to leave her alone in this world. I've been trying so hard to get help, I've contacted multiple doctors who specialise in the particular field but have recieved no help, only now am I getting an mri but I fear the worse as my symptoms have got increasingly worse. My personal doctor is thinking it's mainly mental, without a single actual test performed on me to say otherwise. He's prescribed me with pain relief but now trying to throw anti depressants down my throat, that or hospital because I've stated jusy how depressed I've got from the lack of actual help and how my symptoms are worsening as I be left to suffer

What the injury is about- what kind of symptoms it causes? Being uncertain of situation can be stressful at that point, and if the symptoms causes harm in your daily fuctioning, it may be frustrating to accept them as part of your life.

Being with people who still care for you seems to ease it. Try to be more understanding and compassionate torwards for yourself.

The injury is to the groin/private region. At this point I'm physically unable to have children due to not being completely broken in that area (no meds for that subject work) , you can't see damage on the outside because it's internal. But it sends from my private region all the way down my lower back, legs. It has intervals of sharp intense shock pain. In the beginning my symptoms were treatable I asked for help but doctors wouldn't perform the tests to find out what was going on, they just gave me antibiotics and never actually thought to scan the area of injury. I was told by my doctor at first time of injury to basically do normal stuff. January my injury got much worse/deteriated after trying to be normal again. And ever since has been on major decline and doctors still won't do anything about it. Only now have they decided to give me a scan. I've completely fell apart as a person for being ignored for so long about a very real issue they just refused to take me serious for.

My Wifey honestly has been helping keep going but I know deep down I should have been better by now if only the doctors would have recognised that I genuinely have an issue and tried to find out what was happening to me. My personal got to the point of basically diagnosing me as mainly psychological even though I've had no a single test done to find out what's going on physically. I am being effected mentally by the complete negligence and suffering

idk what kind of symptoms you're going through, and I can only speak for myself obviously, but becoming disabled or having a big change in your health can be really challenging. but it is possible to adapt and live a happy life still. Again, idk what your symptoms are though, and I know intense chronic pain, for example, makes a lot of ppl understandably suicidal.

Either way I think it's important to continue advocating for your medical care. How was the MRI supposed to get scheduled? Like were you referred somewhere and waiting for a call? Are you on a wait list?

I really hate how most doctors, especially if you're a woman or have any history of mental illness, are lazy and just accuse us of making things up. It's so frustrating bc I hear all the time from ppl that doctors didn't take them seriously about some symptom and then years later they go in for something else and a different doctor discovers something that explains all the symptoms they were told was in their head. Or like ppl are in their 40s when they're finally diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder. Or a doctor tells someone they just need to lose weight and later they find out it was cancer. I hope you get the care you deserve soon

I'm under the NHS in the UK which honestly have treated me with complete negligence as far as actually helping me to find out what on earth is going on. It's all wait, wait wait, when quite simply waiting for things to get worse is a complete failure on medical side, leaving me to just deteriate. The pain really is chronic and it's been this way for months, it started off more managable, I asked for help trying to figure out what's happening to me and they made me wait and wait and have me painkillers and antibiotics. I had signs of damage by blood and proteins showing up in my urine but they still didn't scan me regardless of what I asked.

It will directly Impact our future of having kids because I no longer can function at all due to being left like this, and I'm generally just diminished. The pain is truly unbearable. I must have made over 12 or more emergency visits to hospital.

Honestly I hate it so much too, I'm basically being labelled as psychological for the most part even though I've literally not had any physical help, simply because of my record of depression. They want to use that as if it's all in my head rather than actually solving the issue

 

[leaf23]

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. It's really difficult and all sorts of awful when others can't seem to recognize the situation you're in. I really hope you're provided adequate and more accurate medical care in the future.

On the positive side, it sounds like you're finally getting a screening test done soon? So hopefully you'll get an accurate interpretation of that scan which can prescribe you better forms of treatments.

I know this might be so hard and really, better said than done, but maybe you can focus on your healing first? Focus in terms of attention. Your health being better is the most important thing, your primary goal, so you can do and experience all sorts of things and be there to share it all with your loved one, right? You can postpone doing something about the issue on the doctors misdiagnosing you once you're well on your way with other treatments (like lodging a complaint or suing). The world is really unfair sometimes, and right now, the regret, indignation and injustice of being misdiagnosed just seem detrimental and counterproductive to your better health.

I hope I'm not overreaching with my words and am sorry I'm of limited help, but if you need to just talk about what you're going through there's always people here that can listen. Good luck with your mri

 

[TwinFox]

I'm so sorry for what you're going through. It's really difficult and all sorts of awful when others can't seem to recognize the situation you're in. I really hope you're provided adequate and more accurate medical care in the future.

On the positive side, it sounds like you're finally getting a screening test done soon? So hopefully you'll get an accurate interpretation of that scan which can prescribe you better forms of treatments.

I know this might be so hard and really, better said than done, but maybe you can focus on your healing first? Focus in terms of attention. Your health being better is the most important thing, your primary goal, so you can do and experience all sorts of things and be there to share it all with your loved one, right? You can postpone doing something about the issue on the doctors misdiagnosing you once you're well on your way with other treatments (like lodging a complaint or suing). The world is really unfair sometimes, and right now, the regret, indignation and injustice of being misdiagnosed just seem detrimental and counterproductive to your better health.

I hope I'm not overreaching with my words and am sorry I'm of limited help, but if you need to just talk about what you're going through there's always people here that can listen. Good luck with your mri

They've really let me down here, but honestly they've been bringing up my depression and autism a lot lately and using it against me, 'as if I'm imagining symptoms - something I've never done'. It seems to be a bit if a pattern now. I checked myself in to the ER again as the MRI was meant to be urgent, they now told me they wont be able to see me or have my results shown to be until some time in may. They then said their doors are always open if I need mental help or people to talk to (What?!) Isn't this A&E and the idea is to prevent someone suffering.

They found a scar on my wrist and they asked why I done it. I told them because the way I've been treated and allowed to worsen without any help has led to me being really upset and traumatised by treatment here. I told them I was so easy to help if they'd just have gave me the help I needed and understanding in the beginning when I wasn't as bad.

I said to my doctor I'm more interested in actually getting the help I need as I'm practically begging for help, something I said since the beginning. Stating that I don't want my future ruined because I got refused to be actually helped.

I'm trying my best to keep going but this really has took a toll on me, each passing day gets worse, my Wifey is the reason I've continued to keep going or I would have ctb'd already, bad thoughts are really hard to contain though. Thank you so much for your kind and thoughtful responses, it means a lot and no not overreaching I definitely understand what you mean there. Thank so for wishes, I truly appreciate it

 

[RhapsodyinBerserk]

Yeah it's a cyclical loop. I've had GI issues since last December and at some point I just completely lost it. My situation isn't even that bad and I feel like shit for having suicidal thoughts when other people have it a tone worse. I can't imagine having chronic intense pain and not being able to have kids in the future, then the healthcare system fucking you over like that just sucks. Chronic illness and injuries can drain the sanity out of a person's life man, kudos to you for staying in there and still fighting. If you have the effort to stay alive, do it, if it's for someone else, give yourself any reason to keep going for another day.