I really am lost.

[bobara_07]

So, my suicidal urges have become stronger as time goes on and on, I find it even hard to breathe at this point. But I also have someone, who...just loves me for who I am. I dont know why he's even with me at this point. I want to end it all, but its hard, and I dont wanna traumatize him, cause im the only person in his life who has ever shown him this kind of feeling. But simultaneously, my parents make it harder, especially my mom, since she wont understand anything and will bombard me with questions. What can I do?

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

I'm not in a position to tell you what to do but I was in a similar situation so I'll give you advice off that.

Looking back I wish I stayed quiet and found support away from those closest to me since I don't want to burden them with that sort of information. If you love him I think it'd be best for you to tough it out for a future with him.

Again, don't take my advice too seriously. You'd need to put the majority of the thought yourself - I'm just speaking from my experiences.

 

[FuneralCry]

After all, what you should do is completely up to you. Nobody is obligated to stay here and suffer all for the sake of other people, it's a personal decision deciding whether to stay, no matter what suicide is always a perfectly valid option that other people should have no right to interfere in. But it must be tiring being trapped in that situation, it's true that there is no peace from suffering as long as one exists here.