idontwantthisplease
Why am I like this?
- Aug 16, 2026
- 7
When my dad confronted me about my suicidal thoughts, I honestly expected him to be concerned about my mental health and help me get professional support. Instead, the first thing he told me was that he was worried about how expensive my funeral would be if I actually went through with it.
Then, instead of acknowledging what I was struggling with especially how difficult things can be for me as a neurodivergent person he told me to read the bible.
My mom is worse because she believes that going to a psychiatrist is incredibly shameful, hearing that when I was already struggling was incredibly hurtful. I didn't need to be made to feel like a financial burden or told to simply turn to religion, they won't try to acknowledge my declining mental state and my neurodivergence. I needed someone to recognize that I was genuinely struggling and help me get the support I needed but NO, none of them did.
I'm a 19 yr old that has audhd, no friends, broke as hell in a poor household, my parents made me drop out of college just because I failed in my accounting subject. I'm also a digital artist who's trying to live off by doing art commissions but my fucking mother won't stop asking me about my earnings and will demand that I give her my earnings to her in the future. I guess this is the curse of being an introverted and mentally ill 19 yr old living with their parents in their 60's.
I'm from the philippines and I need SN asap. feel free to message me if you'd like to. This is also my first vent post here.
Then, instead of acknowledging what I was struggling with especially how difficult things can be for me as a neurodivergent person he told me to read the bible.
My mom is worse because she believes that going to a psychiatrist is incredibly shameful, hearing that when I was already struggling was incredibly hurtful. I didn't need to be made to feel like a financial burden or told to simply turn to religion, they won't try to acknowledge my declining mental state and my neurodivergence. I needed someone to recognize that I was genuinely struggling and help me get the support I needed but NO, none of them did.
I'm a 19 yr old that has audhd, no friends, broke as hell in a poor household, my parents made me drop out of college just because I failed in my accounting subject. I'm also a digital artist who's trying to live off by doing art commissions but my fucking mother won't stop asking me about my earnings and will demand that I give her my earnings to her in the future. I guess this is the curse of being an introverted and mentally ill 19 yr old living with their parents in their 60's.
I'm from the philippines and I need SN asap. feel free to message me if you'd like to. This is also my first vent post here.
thanks man
