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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

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Aug 4, 2018
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I wasn't going to CTB tonight but the switch in my head was set to self destruct mode.

My pulse got faster. My head felt... Padded and enclosed. My face went red. I felt light headed.

Does that mean I was doing it right/on the way to passing out? It wouldn't have been viable tonight because I had to keep hold of the belt to keep it tight on my neck and when I could have passed out I would have loosened my grip. I'm looking into rope turned into a slipknot for the real thing.
 
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Virgo

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Oct 3, 2018
497
I wasn't going to CTB tonight but the switch in my head was set to self destruct mode.

My pulse got faster. My head felt... Padded and enclosed. My face went red. I felt light headed.

Does that mean I was doing it right/on the way to passing out? It wouldn't have been viable tonight because I had to keep hold of the belt to keep it tight on my neck and when I could have passed out I would have loosened my grip. I'm looking into rope turned into a slipknot for the real thing.
elaborate on your face going red.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

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Aug 4, 2018
693
elaborate on your face going red.
I think it changed colour? I couldn't see very well but I feel like I looked a bit purple? Not sure if that was just my eyes going funny though. I was looking in the mirror
 
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Virgo

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Oct 3, 2018
497
I think it changed colour? I couldn't see very well but I feel like I looked a bit purple? Not sure if that was just my eyes going funny though. I was looking in the mirror
If you didn't feel pain/pressure in your head your prob fine.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

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Aug 4, 2018
693
If you didn't feel pain/pressure in your head your prob fine.
I felt some pressure, like my head was being squeezed
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

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Schopenhauer

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Oct 3, 2018
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Pressure and pain are the red flags. For this reason hanging is on standby for me - in my tests I never got close to passing out.
 
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Virgo

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Oct 3, 2018
497
Pressure and pain are the red flags. For this reason hanging is on standby for me - in my tests I never got close to passing out.
Can you not do it without pressure or pain?
 
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Schopenhauer

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Oct 3, 2018
1,133
Can you not do it without pressure or pain?

I tried several times, but wasn't able to - I always got the "exploding head" feeling. Since I ordered N, I decided to wait, as long as I can do it this year. If things get rough before then, I'll make a more serious attempt.
 
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Virgo

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Oct 3, 2018
497
I tried several times, but wasn't able to - I always got the "exploding head" feeling. Since I ordered N, I decided to wait, as long as I can do it this year. If things get rough before then, I'll make a more serious attempt.
If you can get N, definitely no point doing partial.
 
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Schopenhauer

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Oct 3, 2018
1,133
If you can get N, definitely no point doing partial.

I already ordered it, it was sent last Saturday. However, I'm not sanguine about the odds of actually receiving it. We have very strict customs in my country.
 
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CJM

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Jul 13, 2018
246
When I tried, I used a belt too. Majority of the time I only felt terrible head exploding pressure but there was this once where I managed to compress the arteries and started to faint, fell onto a heap on the floor in a panic, had no idea wtf happened but soon realised I now know the spot.
 
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BaconCheeseburger

BaconCheeseburger

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Aug 4, 2018
693
I can still feel the pressure around my neck, not sure if that's just me being a hypochondriac or just I'm so low in my depression that I can feel every inch of my body in discomfort.
 
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worldexploder

worldexploder

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Sep 19, 2018
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Sounds like you felt a lot of what I did when I attempted. The pressure and throbbing in my head freaked me out more than anything.
 
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Virgo

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Oct 3, 2018
497
I can still feel the pressure around my neck, not sure if that's just me being a hypochondriac or just I'm so low in my depression that I can feel every inch of my body in discomfort.
A little bit of pressure isn't to bad. You don't want a lot of pressure though.
 
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RM5998

RM5998

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Sep 3, 2018
2,202
The pressure buildup in the head is a sign that you're compressing veins and not arteries, thus having blood enter the head and not leave.

That's what happened when I was using my t-shirt. When I used a rope, it worked perfectly (well, I didn't exactly go unconscious, but I did lose vision, balance and muscular control). The key is to have the ligature compress every part of your neck to ensure that your arteries get shut and remain shut. In your case, @BaconCheeseburger, this can be done by making sure that the belt is pressing down on all sides. When you perform the actual process, you won't pull - you'll use some support to keep the belt in position, and let your body go limp to put pressure on the arteries.
 
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I’vehadenough

I’vehadenough

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Sep 15, 2018
847
I already ordered it, it was sent last Saturday. However, I'm not sanguine about the odds of actually receiving it. We have very strict customs in my country.
Where did you get N?
 
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