Venting I pushed away my closest friends so they won't care when I take my life

[Arb]

I'm a worthless human being anyway, I got angry with them, brought up how I felt worthless by throwing the blame on them and comparing myself to a known predator that they keep somehow getting in contact with, telling them I love how they value a repeat sex offender more than someone's who's trying their hardest to be a better person

But that doesn't matter anymore, they're done with me, they said it themselves, they're done that i keep snapping at them and cutting them off, but that's good then my death wont hurt them

I wish I could easily access guns, it would make this so much easier, theyll celebrate my death when it does come around