enne
blood sport
- May 13, 2026
- 57
i'm texting my best friend, she's supposed to come over. i'm trying so hard not to say something i would post here. i almost want to tell her to forget it. been trying to get her here since 7, hey 11:11 <3 but she has things going on and i respect. i cant vent openly bc i
well
i'm scared she'll overshare and i'll get locked back in that hell hole.
i blabbed all night to one person, thankfully i just got drunk enough to sing and then pass out.
i really wanted to go out. called the go out idk how many times. probably fucked that up. (fair)
i just should go back mute. i'm so desperate to be understood tho.
i cant live like this. i cant live.
trying to scrounge for more cancer sticks if she comes. apparently i went through my pack last night. i feel like shit. i just wish whoever was in charge would stop letting me wake up.
well
i'm scared she'll overshare and i'll get locked back in that hell hole.
i blabbed all night to one person, thankfully i just got drunk enough to sing and then pass out.
i really wanted to go out. called the go out idk how many times. probably fucked that up. (fair)
i just should go back mute. i'm so desperate to be understood tho.
i cant live like this. i cant live.
trying to scrounge for more cancer sticks if she comes. apparently i went through my pack last night. i feel like shit. i just wish whoever was in charge would stop letting me wake up.
