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bleepbloopbleep

Mr. Worldwide
Dec 23, 2024
36
It's like a weight has been lifted off. I don't even know when I plan on using it. Maybe in a few months when my roommate is away.

But just having ordered it. Payment being accepted. It feels good. Now I just wait for the actual order to arrive.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,010
I understand why you'd feel relieved at having the option, I wish you the best.
 
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smpkie

Banned
May 25, 2023
41
I wish you luck!!,, May you find the peace you're looking for.
 
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j1nxxb0yjj4ke

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Jun 26, 2023
78
I had to throw mine away..,
I wish I still had it..
I wanna order it again so bad..
 
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ningen_shikkaku

Member
Dec 12, 2024
26
I also just recently ordered SN, and feel the same way. I feel... relaxed, probably the most I've ever been for a while. I can't wait until it arrives, but I won't be using it straight away; it's almost as if the existence of a 'way out' allows me to live more comfortably, knowing I can leave when I choose.
 
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Overwhelmed52

Experienced
Dec 3, 2024
245
I understand this completely. Just to know there's that option would be a relief. My preferred option would be N but it's very hard to get.
 
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bluepotato

Member
Dec 28, 2024
14
I also just recently ordered SN, and feel the same way. I feel... relaxed, probably the most I've ever been for a while. I can't wait until it arrives, but I won't be using it straight away; it's almost as if the existence of a 'way out' allows me to live more comfortably, knowing I can leave when I choose.
Hey ningen,
Did you order from dmc?
 
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Szarur-abi

Szarur-abi

I Useless dipsh*t I
Apr 25, 2024
80
I bought SN in march but i threw it away recently cause i decided to get better but now that its gone i feel like im forced to live this shitty life no matter how shitty it will get... Sooo yesterday i ordered 98% pure lab-grade sn and it will come in a week, immedientaly felt relief, its freeing to have it hidden in room even if i dont plan to use it right away i just have option to leave, not be forced to live if things get unbearable. Right now im barely holding on, im telling everyone that i feel like shit but noone can really help me, family and friends probably wants to but they are unable to and i cant blame them...
 
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Ready2Gi

Member
Nov 28, 2024
6
Hey, Congrats!

Can i ask where you got it from/ordered..where can i find it? i am really struggling to find the correct stuff in the UK
 
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bleepbloopbleep

Mr. Worldwide
Dec 23, 2024
36
I also just recently ordered SN, and feel the same way. I feel... relaxed, probably the most I've ever been for a while. I can't wait until it arrives, but I won't be using it straight away; it's almost as if the existence of a 'way out' allows me to live more comfortably, knowing I can leave when I choose.
Exactly!! Couldn't have put it better myself
I understand this completely. Just to know there's that option would be a relief. My preferred option would be N but it's very hard to get.
Ideally I would've used N too but SN sounds like a good enough method as well.
I bought SN in march but i threw it away recently cause i decided to get better but now that its gone i feel like im forced to live this shitty life no matter how shitty it will get... Sooo yesterday i ordered 98% pure lab-grade sn and it will come in a week, immedientaly felt relief, its freeing to have it hidden in room even if i dont plan to use it right away i just have option to leave, not be forced to live if things get unbearable. Right now im barely holding on, im telling everyone that i feel like shit but noone can really help me, family and friends probably wants to but they are unable to and i cant blame them...
Exactly! It's about having it if you need it. Having that control.
Hey, Congrats!

Can i ask where you got it from/ordered..where can i find it? i am really struggling to find the correct stuff in the UK

Hey if u PM me i can help you out!
 
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Ready2Gi

Member
Nov 28, 2024
6
Exactly!! Couldn't have put it better myself

Ideally I would've used N too but SN sounds like a good enough method as well.

Exactly! It's about having it if you need it. Having that control.


Hey if u PM me i can help you out!
Messaged!
 
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cali22♡

cali22♡

Banned
Nov 11, 2023
450
I know this feeling and could enjoy it so much
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
649
Exactly!! Couldn't have put it better myself

Ideally I would've used N too but SN sounds like a good enough method as well.

Exactly! It's about having it if you need it. Having that control.


Hey if u PM me i can help you out!
Please message me I must know of this!!
 
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Depressive_Thoughts

Depressive_Thoughts

Member
Jan 6, 2025
52
I ordered my SN yesterday, its sort of mixed feelings but I also feel excited somehow
 
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bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
394
Yeah is a psychological thing having sn at your hands knowing you could die anyday in a way it helps you to still be alive
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
649
It seems like I can't PM you but if you message me I can help! :)
I don't know how to message and would love that!! 🥹😭😭😭🥺

Also, I found on AMZ is that a good place or look somewhere else? I'm saving lots of money on my ctb and others in my life while I choose to not be cremated.
 
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human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
590
I wish you the best, hope you find peace.
 
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bleepbloopbleep

Mr. Worldwide
Dec 23, 2024
36
I don't know how to message and would love that!! 🥹😭😭😭🥺

Also, I found on AMZ is that a good place or look somewhere else? I'm saving lots of money on my ctb and others in my life while I choose to not be cremated.
I unfortunately don't know of any other legit sources besides DMC :((

It might be a good source, I would definitly look into it on the site and see if anyone else had good experiences with them!
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
649
I unfortunately don't know of any other legit sources besides DMC :((

It might be a good source, I would definitly look into it on the site and see if anyone else had good experiences with them!
Ah, I tried finding what DMC stands for as a merchandising company, and I can't find it, and thank you so much!!

I will look into it as well :'))

Also found the best Reddit ever
 
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cazza82

cazza82

Can’tsufferanymore
Nov 20, 2024
192
Feel
Hey, Congrats!

Can i ask where you got it from/ordered..where can i find it? i am really struggling to find the correct stuff in the UK
Feel free to message me mines been shipped
 

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