I feel the same way, I see all suffering as meaningless, unnecessary and undesirable, I see it as the most terrible curse to have the ability to exist in this reality where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, it disturbs me how an existing being can potentially suffer so much.
I'm always so disgusted by this hellish anti-suicide society where people are expected to continue suffering no matter what, even know existing is completely futile and just leads to decay and death anyway. I only envy those who cease existing as they are now incapable of suffering for all eternity.