Venting I Never Want To Do Anything

[hurts2b]

This has got to be the worst part of my MH issues. I just. Do not feel like doing things. Even fun things. Every time I leave the house I have to mentally talk myself into it. If left to my own devices I'd spend my whole damn life rotting in bed. On some level, that's my only "real" desire. To be alone. To rot.

 

[nobody_oac]

I can empathize and I am sorry you are experiencing this. I too fight myself, hard, to do anything I know would be fun. Then, when I've beaten myself into submission and do it, I'm so mentally exhausted I can't enjoy it. I inevitably leave not long after arriving, face plant my pillow, and call it another failed day.

The worst days are when you feel like you want to do everything and nothing at the same time. Then the paralysis sets in, you do nothing, and mental self-flagellation starts.

 

[hoppybunny]

This has got to be the worst part of my MH issues. I just. Do not feel like doing things. Even fun things. Every time I leave the house I have to mentally talk myself into it. If left to my own devices I'd spend my whole damn life rotting in bed. On some level, that's my only "real" desire. To be alone. To rot.

Do u find urself enjoying activities that u force urself or someone else forces u to do?

And secondly are there any restrictions that stop u from enjoying "bedroom hobbies" like watching movies or knitting, sewing, embroidery, reading etc?

 

[hurts2b]

Do u find urself enjoying activities that u force urself or someone else forces u to do?

And secondly are there any restrictions that stop u from enjoying "bedroom hobbies" like watching movies or knitting, sewing, embroidery, reading etc?

I can sometimes enjoy the activities I make myself do. But the enjoyment tends to be mild. I can't reliably have a good time with anything. Bedroom hobbies are easier but. Much the same as going outside. It takes. A lot of energy. Have to convince myself to act. Get drained easily.