I need to say goodbye to the pain.

[insomnia2727]

I need the pain to stop. I grew up abused as a child then finally had one friendship in college and it ended badly and ruined the rest of the time in college leading to me getting raped by a different friend and assualted by a church member. The friendship guy is now very successful and I highly doubt ever even thinks of me and I've continued to be alone. The pain has only ever gotten worse and never stopped. I need it to end.

I have a heart condition and take heart pills because of it. I've been stocking up on them though. I need to know if what I plan on taking will kill me or leave me in a lot of pain and a vegetable. I don't want to live in more pain than I already am.

I have about 90 pills of metoprolol tartrate 25mg. About 70 pills of protonix 40mg. About 40 pills of escitalapram 20mg. About 60 pills of abilify 2mg. 16 pills of metoclopramide 5mg. 7 pills of hydroxyzine 25 mg. 90 pills of cyclobenzaprine 10mg. 90 pills of wellbutrin xl 150mg. And like 20mg of atomexetine 18mg.

I have 2 cats i love so much but I can't take the pain anymore of living.

 

[ireallywasnttogopls]

i have no idea if this will kill you but i wish you peace i know your soul is tired :(

 

[darksouls]

peace and love to you, my friend

 

[insomnia2727]

Well I'm still here and my soul is exhausted and overwhelmed. On top of that, my car is totaled after hitting a deer.

 

[psty2125]

Well I'm still here and my soul is exhausted and overwhelmed. On top of that, my car is totaled after hitting a deer.

If you wanna talk, I'm here. I know I can't convince you out of it, but at least I just wanna let you know that I feel for you and I frankly do care.

 

[acey]

Whatever you do please make sure the cats dependent on you have somewhere to go. Cats are so wonderful, mine keep me here so far. Anyway, I hope it gets better.
Please don't leave them to suffer if you choose to go

 

[insomnia2727]

Whatever you do please make sure the cats dependent on you have somewhere to go. Cats are so wonderful, mine keep me here so far. Anyway, I hope it gets better.
Please don't leave them to suffer if you choose to go

My cats are my world and why I'm still here. They're in my will and will be taken care of very dearly. I have money allocated to both of them too. One is getting older and that hurts me a lot to see her with arthritis. She was there for me when i was raped and I can't lose her.

If you wanna talk, I'm here. I know I can't convince you out of it, but at least I just wanna let you know that I feel for you and I frankly do care.

I was talking to this guy who seemed very hopeful about us and happy and then he stopped texting. I was a fool to think anyone would love me for me and not just sex. Why would anyone actually want me? My own parents didn't.