I need to go

[shego1217]

I'm a depressed anxious weirdo that prozac and therapy couldn't fix. I only had my mom who died at freaking 45. No siblings, boyfriend/partner, kids, and friends to speak of. I have a chronic illness (Multiple Sclerosis) and I'm ready to go this weekend. I don't have any pain-free or surefire method. The only options I have been able to think of are: Caffeine Overdose, Bleach and Ammonia Gas, or leftovers of my late mom's high blood pressure pills. I just don't know which way world work best or be easiest. Or maybe I should try to do them all? I'm in pain every day, am getting dumber due to MS, and am so unhappy. There is no hope.

 

[dggtscccvfd]

I'm a depressed anxious weirdo that prozac and therapy couldn't fix. I only had my mom who died at freaking 45. No siblings, boyfriend/partner, kids, and friends to speak of. I have a chronic illness (Multiple Sclerosis) and I'm ready to go this weekend. I don't have any pain-free or surefire method. The only options I have been able to think of are: Caffeine Overdose, Bleach and Ammonia Gas, or leftovers of my late mom's high blood pressure pills. I just don't know which way world work best or be easiest. Or maybe I should try to do them all? I'm in pain every day, am getting dumber due to MS, and am so unhappy. There is no hope.

Those methods don't sound very reliable!

 

[FuneralCry]

That must be really dreadful what you are going through, I find it extremely cruel how people cannot just have the option of a painless, guaranteed way to just cease existing. But anyway I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

I'm a depressed anxious weirdo that prozac and therapy couldn't fix. I only had my mom who died at freaking 45. No siblings, boyfriend/partner, kids, and friends to speak of. I have a chronic illness (Multiple Sclerosis) and I'm ready to go this weekend. I don't have any pain-free or surefire method. The only options I have been able to think of are: Caffeine Overdose, Bleach and Ammonia Gas, or leftovers of my late mom's high blood pressure pills. I just don't know which way world work best or be easiest. Or maybe I should try to do them all? I'm in pain every day, am getting dumber due to MS, and am so unhappy. There is no hope.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. We should have the right to go as seamlessly and painlessly as possible. I hope we get our peace. <3

 

[Coconut blue]

my personal two cents is all of them sound like terrible ideas...

 

[locked*n*loaded]

None of those methods are going to be effective for ctb. They will just injure you in other ways and add to your misery. Please, try to find another way that is accessible to you and has a better chance at working.

 

[Ash]

I'm sorry you're struggling but those do not sound like particularly effective or safe.

We can't recommend specific methods but please do have a look at the resource compilation thread:

Suicide Resource Compilation

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[shego1217]

None of those methods are going to be effective for ctb. They will just injure you in other ways and add to your misery. Please, try to find another way that is accessible to you and has a better chance at working.

Do you think any of those methods could just leave me a vegetable (if not kill me)? I just don't want to be conscious and cognizant.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Do you think any of those methods could just leave me a vegetable (if not kill me)? I just don't want to be conscious and cognizant.

I think any method has the potential to leave someone as a vegetable if it doesn't go as planned. I wouldn't even want to hazzard a guess at what an unconscious mind, perhaps even one in a vegetative state, *might* be able to still perceive, or be cognizant of. I think scientists can hook up all the "gizmos" in the world to an unconscious, or vegetative, person to measure all kinds of things in an effort to "show" if a mind is still functioning, still thinking, still able to perceive things, but, in the end, no one can really know for certain because humans, or mankind, cannot know what they don't know.

I can't suggest a method to you. I encourage you to look through this compilation of methods and explore those that might be something that could work for you, and then investigate and learn everything you can about your chosen method before going forward with it.

https://www.sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-resource-compilation.3/