I need someone

[fallingleaves]

I can't bear the pain anymore. Now I feel I'm being attacked on all sides. I don't know how to maintain. I want a hug. Please help me.

 

[hhtroc]

Have you access to anyone in real life you can talk to or access to counseling? I think therapy can help. Otherwise, dm me as soon as I hit 100 posts lol, I don't know how much help I will be but I can try.

 

[spypilot896]

if I could I would just hold you tightly and never let go

 

[fallingleaves]

No, I'm completely alone. Therapy doesn't help.

if I could I would just hold you tightly and never let go

Please hold me

Everyone left me.
I want to die
Help

 

[spypilot896]

No, I'm completely alone. Therapy doesn't help.


Please hold me

Everyone left me. My best friend from this forum is leaving me.
I want to die
Help

I'm not gonna say the same preachy bullshit that everyone else always says
if you feel like the pain is too much then find a partner or someone that wont say the usual "you have so much too look forward too" bullshit
I cant help but somebody out there will
you say you need someone , then go fucking find someone
try to use whatever willpower you have left in yourself and find someone

 

[fallingleaves]

I'm not gonna say the same preachy bullshit that everyone else always says
if you feel like the pain is too much then find a partner or someone that wont say the usual "you have so much too look forward too" bullshit
I cant help but somebody out there will
you say you need someone , then go fucking find someone

Everyone left me. I can't find anyone. I'm very much on the verge of suicide right now. I'm in so much pain. My friend left me. I can't talk to him. He was so nice to me before. I'm in so much pain

 

[hhtroc]

If you want to, we can just talk about it here. Since you are so depressed, there is probably nothing you want to fawn about but when you were a little bit better, what were your hobbies?

 

[fallingleaves]

If you want to, we can just talk about it here. Since you are so depressed, there is probably nothing you want to fawn about but when you were a little bit better, what were your hobbies?

I can't talk about that. I just want to die

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I'm sorry you are so alone now, hope you can feel our care and concern coming your way. Sending you love with hugs and hope it reaches you and comforts you somehow to know you are not completely alone by being here with us

 

[fallingleaves]

I'm sorry you are so alone now, hope you can feel our care and concern coming your way. Sending you love with hugs and hope it reaches you and comforts you somehow to know you are not completely alone by being here with us

It hurts so much

 

[ilvgore]

same, i dont know what to do anymore im so fricking lonely i wish i was different and had no need for relationships yet i do im emberassed to say i want relationships when i cant get one they are a privilege:) and they are leaving me anyways i just want someone to hold me be by my side and also he has to love my shadow side i want someone who thinks we have a future together forever and ever right now im just really desperate i cried so much today

 

[fallingleaves]

same, i dont know what to do anymore im so fricking lonely i wish i was different and had no need for relationships yet i do im emberassed to say i want relationships when i cant get one they are a privilege:) and they are leaving me anyways i just want someone to hold me be by my side and also he has to love my shadow side i want someone who thinks we have a future together forever and ever right now im just really desperate i cried so much today

Me too :(

 

[ilvgore]

same, i dont know what to do anymore im so fricking lonely i wish i was different and had no need for relationships yet i do im emberassed to say i want relationships when i cant get one they are a privilege:) and they are leaving me anyways i just want someone to hold me be by my side and also he has to love my shadow side i want someone who thinks we have a future together forever and ever right now im just really desperate i cried so much today

trust me i really get how you are feelingy personality disorder makes it hard to communicate things and feelings with others but u deserve to be loved by someone

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

It hurts so much

I'm sorry, I think we know what you mean. Wish I could hold you and tell you it will be okay. I'll hold you in my thoughts and hope to take away some of your pain as I go into dreamland soon. May the hugs coming your way help to lessen the hurt bit by bit.

 

[fallingleaves]

I

I'm sorry, I think we know what you mean. Wish I could hold you and tell you it will be okay. I'll hold you in my thoughts and hope to take away some of your pain as I go into dreamland soon. May the hugs coming your way help to lessen the hurt bit by bit.

I don't know how I'm ever going to be okay. I'm at the end of my rope. I appreciate the hugs but I'm a shell of myself. I'm a shell

 

[mattoman]

I can't bear the pain anymore. Now I feel I'm being attacked on all sides. I don't know how to maintain. I want a hug. Please help me.

I know the feel... I'm sorry you feel this way, I'd hug you if it was possible in any way.

 

[grapevoid]

I wish you were closer! I'm an awful partner/ friend because even people I like I end up wanting them out of my space but I'm great for small doses of companionship

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I

I don't know how I'm ever going to be okay. I'm at the end of my rope. I appreciate the hugs but I'm a shell of myself. I'm a shell

I can honestly say, that I believe we may be a forum of shells. At least I know what you mean, and I'm not just saying it. Take comfort in knowing that you are not alone in feeling this way. I know the emptiness, the blackness, the darkness. Nobody knows about tomorrow though, and it may feel as if it will never be okay, but we really don't know

 

[fallingleaves]

I can honestly say, that I believe we may be a forum of shells. At least I know what you mean, and I'm not just saying it. Take comfort in knowing that you are not alone in feeling this way. I know the emptiness, the blackness, the darkness. Nobody knows about tomorrow though, and it may feel as if it will never be okay, but we really don't know

Thanks for your kind words. I wish I had something positive to say back. I feel such sadness and grief.

My friend blocked me. I was trying to de-escalate the situation by not saying anything because I didn't know what to say. I got blocked. I didn't know what to say. I was hoping I could figure it out later.

Everything hurts so much. I feel such a stupid piece of shit. I don't want to be here anymore.

I wish I had said something. I needed more time.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Thanks for your kind words. I wish I had something positive to say back. I feel such sadness and grief.

I know. Sometimes there really isn't anything positive. That's okay. Just let the sadness and grief be for now. It's okay to be sad and to grieve when there's really no space for anything else. When it's too much, it's simply too much, then it's time to be sad. Sorry I cannot help more but offer words and feel for you, know that we feel sad for you too, in the hope that it may help to take away even a tiny bit of pain from you.

 

[fallingleaves]

I know. Sometimes there really isn't anything positive. That's okay. Just let the sadness and grief be for now. It's okay to be sad and to grieve when there's really no space for anything else. When it's too much, it's simply too much, then it's time to be sad. Sorry I cannot help more but offer words and feel for you, know that we feel sad for you too, in the hope that it may help to take away even a tiny bit of pain from you.

My heart physically hurts. Maybe I'll have a heart attack. The thought is frightening. Pain is a frightening. But the level of pain I'm in now is also frightening.

Please my friend come back :(
Please everyone come back :(

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

My heart physically hurts. Maybe I'll have a heart attack. The thought is frightening. Pain is a frightening. But the level of pain I'm in now is also frightening.

Please my friend come back :(
Please everyone come back :(

I feel you. Don't know if it could help, but when I felt that way, I sent my heart "away" mentally. Cause I felt that I couldn't let my heart feel too much or interfere with my mind. The pain was too much, too scary, so I had to let my mind take over, to stay sane and to keep from crumbling.

 

[fallingleaves]

I feel you. Don't know if it could help, but when I felt that way, I sent my heart "away" mentally. Cause I felt that I couldn't let my heart feel too much or interfere with my mind. The pain was too much, too scary, so I had to let my mind take over, to stay sane and to keep from crumbling.

I'm all heart? Lol. Idk how to do that. My heart is my mind is my heart.

I can't stop thinking about hanging. I'm exhausted so maybe I can sleep but I'm also frozen and extremely hurt. Maybe sleep but then when I wake up people will still be gone. I can't live with people being gone.

You know, if I take every drug I have there's a good chance that I'll end up in a coma at least. Might die. Surely overdoses sometimes work.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

I'm all heart? Lol. Idk how to do that. My heart is my mind is my heart.

I can't stop thinking about hanging. I'm exhausted so maybe I can sleep but I'm also frozen and extremely hurt. Maybe sleep but then when I wake up people will still be gone. I can't live with people being gone.

I know, that is what makes heartache so scary. If we lose the heart, we may lose the mind. I tried to separate the two, because I was in denial, refused to believe what is happening, stopped crying. You are right, you need to sleep. Your heart and mind need rest. Don't worry about tomorrow now, stop thinking, just close your eyes and sleep. Good night x

 

[fallingleaves]

I know, that is what makes heartache so scary. If we lose the heart, we may lose the mind. I tried to separate the two, because I was in denial, refused to believe what is happening, stopped crying. You are right, you need to sleep. Your heart and mind need rest. Don't worry about tomorrow now, stop thinking, just close your eyes and sleep. Good night x

Oh I'm setting an alarm to buy alcohol before the store closes, for sure.

 

[idk3]

Oh I'm setting an alarm to buy alcohol before the store closes, for sure.

Have you tried benzos before?

 

[fallingleaves]

Have you tried benzos before?

Yes