I need help

[Liferunner]

I am a new user here but I am really happy to have found this place.

I don't have an exact date set as I can continue on for quite a while before I will be forced to ctb but with that being said I am firm in my resolve to do it and to do it right!

So far it seems SN is going to be my method although I would much prefer n. Problem is that I cannot seem to find a reliable source for it. Others have mentioned getting from D but I don't really know how reliable that would be or if it is even possible at this point. I really would not appreciate being scammed since there is a site called pp that I later found is just a scam based out of Europe somewhere.

In any case I just got my SN today. It is supposedly 99% pure food grade and was relatively cheap! Only about 50 usd and delivered to my home with no issues. TBH it's cost kind of concerned me since I have heard from others that SN can be expensive. Is it cheaper in the US or something? Again I don't want to make a mistake. I know we are not supposed to name sources so for those who may be in the know I got a 10 Lb tub of the stuff from an online retailer called DE. I don't want to go into anymore detail at this point but I do know that others have called them out by name here.

My first question is really just making sure if what I got will do the trick. I know that 10 lbs is ridiculously overkill but again, it was so cheap! Looking back I probably would have done just fine with the 2 lb version, or even much less but I have it now so I guess I will just keep it if it is indeed the right stuff.

Secondly I really need to get a good dopemine blocker since I don't want to puke it up. I have access to a limited amount of norcos as well as some nucenta so painkillers are covered. Will these be helpful?

Thirdly if I cannot get prescription antiemetics what is the next best option for this for otc?

Obviously ant acids are also important but I also want to make sure that I get the best otc available. Will something as innocuous as tums do the trick or will I need something better?

I really want to do this right and the fear of failure just scares me so much! I have a hard time imagining taking this only to have to try to down a second glass after puking. I probably won't call for help but I don't want to wake up covered in puke and feces from not taking all of the right steps.

Getting n is really the preferred way but I am not sure if anyone can help with that. Feel free to pm me though.

This has really been hard but I feel like it's the only way to find peace. I am not as young as many others on this forum so as far as I am concerned I have lived a full enough life and I know it is only going to be worse from here on out and I would much rather go out on my own terms while I still can.

It's funny because I can probably hold out for a few years before the money runs out, but each day is just so horrible! Depression is no joke... The insomnia, feelings of constant dread, the nightmares, just everything is against me and I know that there is simply no way out. Even selling all of my possessions just to rid myself of all of the clutter is soul crushing. Everything just seems pointless since I will be gone anyways. I don't think I have what it takes to even work a job, any job at this point. I never ever thought that things could get this bad but here I am...

Anyways, sorry for the rant and thanks to everyone here. So glad I finally found this place and any help would be much appreciated.

 

[befree]

Hi.
Since you are e new member, it´s not possible to send you a PM and you can not send PM. If you are in the EU or UK I could send you a source for Domperidon and Propranolol. But you can also use the over the counter drug Diphenhydramin(chlorid) instead of Meto (MCP) and Domperidon. I don´t know a source for an antacid, but I know that simple baking soda reduces acid as well.

 

[Liferunner]

Hi.
Since you are e new member, it´s not possible to send you a PM and you can not send PM. If you are in the EU or UK I could send you a source for Domperidon and Propranolol. But you can also use the over the counter drug Diphenhydramin(chlorid) instead of Meto (MCP) and Domperidon. I don´t know a source for an antacid, but I know that simple baking soda reduces acid as well.

Do you happen to know when I can will be able able to to send and receive pms?
I Also decided to add this pic with the company name covered. Is this the right stuff?
I Also decided to add this pic with the company name covered. Is this the right stuff?

 

[befree]

NaNO2 is right. What is the purity ?

 

[Liferunner]

NaNO2 is right. What is the purity ?

99.9% according to the seller.

I decided to open it and it was very strong. Left a pretty noticeable odor in the kitchen for hours. Almost like an industrial cleaner and it kinda opens the nostrils a bit.

Drinking it seems kinda scary TBH.

I bought way to much. Don't know what I was thinking lol

 

[befree]

99,9% is ok.
You should never open SN for more than seconds or better never until you use it. Under the influence of oxygen nitrit turns into nitrat. For how long was it open ? My SN does NOT smell like an industrial cleaner.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/search/831650/?q=SN&o=relevance

 

[rationaltake]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

Hi. I've posted the link for Stan's Guide to SN. Apologies if you've already seen it.

It's very helpful when it comes to SN.

Sorry you're on here but welcome to the site.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/pph-april-2022.89185/

The PPeH has info on SN and N.

The only reliable source for N is given in the PPeH and is D.

However there is a shortage of N atm and D has said they are unable to supply N until maybe July.

I don´t know a source for an antacid, but I know that simple baking soda reduces acid as well.

Yes baking soda has been mentioned. And Milk of Magnesia.

I thought maybe Rennies. There is also Gaviscon but I think either Stan's Guide or the PPeH said that wasn't the best.

 

[Liferunner]

99,9% is ok.
You should never open SN for more than seconds or better never until you use it. Under the influence of oxygen nitrit turns into nitrat. For how long was it open ? My SN does NOT smell like an industrial cleaner.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/search/831650/?q=SN&o=relevance

Yes I closed it immediately after looking at it. It seems to be the color and consistency as described by others. Industrial cleaner may not be the correct description of the smell, but it is very strong nonetheless and after opening it the smell lingered for a while. After looking at it for just 10 seconds or so I put the lid back on and resealed it the bag that it came in. I doubt it had any time to oxidize, at least I hope so.