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F.1d
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- Sep 16, 2021
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Hi everyone, I don't know if this is the right place to talk about it but I'll do it anyway.
I am a 24 year old girl and I long for death today more than ever.
I tried already at the age of 13/14 to end my life but I was naive and also reckless, I mixed various medicines that only brought me nausea and drowsiness. For years I have not thought about suicide anymore but in the last year this thought has returned and it has become stronger and stronger. I have a beautiful family and a boyfriend who loves me but I am so unhappy ... I have problems with university and I feel a burden for my family, especially for my father. In the last period I feel hatred from him towards me and this kills me. I haven't done anything in my life yet. I have problems with studying and I can't even find a job to be able to support myself, I would like to be a lesser burden for my parents. I have never confided in someone suffering from panic and anxiety attacks that I use a mild antidepressant that I have been prescribed for migraines. This alone gives me some peace.
I think my death will be beneficial for both me and my family. I will no longer disappoint anyone and they will no longer have the problem of having to support me.
I'm looking for a quick and painless way to die. I try to dispel the feelings of guilt for the suffering that will cause my death but I can't resist anymore. I want to end it all. Please help me.
I apologize for my English but I'm upset, I'm Italian.
I am a 24 year old girl and I long for death today more than ever.
I tried already at the age of 13/14 to end my life but I was naive and also reckless, I mixed various medicines that only brought me nausea and drowsiness. For years I have not thought about suicide anymore but in the last year this thought has returned and it has become stronger and stronger. I have a beautiful family and a boyfriend who loves me but I am so unhappy ... I have problems with university and I feel a burden for my family, especially for my father. In the last period I feel hatred from him towards me and this kills me. I haven't done anything in my life yet. I have problems with studying and I can't even find a job to be able to support myself, I would like to be a lesser burden for my parents. I have never confided in someone suffering from panic and anxiety attacks that I use a mild antidepressant that I have been prescribed for migraines. This alone gives me some peace.
I think my death will be beneficial for both me and my family. I will no longer disappoint anyone and they will no longer have the problem of having to support me.
I'm looking for a quick and painless way to die. I try to dispel the feelings of guilt for the suffering that will cause my death but I can't resist anymore. I want to end it all. Please help me.
I apologize for my English but I'm upset, I'm Italian.