I need help

[justfloating]

For the method I will use I need to travel 3 hours for it. I want to die but my urges aren't as strong as they have been in the past so I'm scared I will back out. If I get there and back out then my life will go to shit due to the repercussions. I got as far as to buying my ticket and sitting on the train but just couldn't do it.

I never used to feel guilt for leaving people behind but someone has come back into my life and if I CTB I worry what they will do.

 

[MsMaudlin]

It sounds to me like you aren't ready yet?
❤

 

[Jean4]

For the method I will use I need to travel 3 hours for it. I want to die but my urges aren't as strong as they have been in the past so I'm scared I will back out. If I get there and back out then my life will go to shit due to the repercussions. I got as far as to buying my ticket and sitting on the train but just couldn't do it.

I never used to feel guilt for leaving people behind but someone has come back into my life and if I CTB I worry what they will do.

If you are openly saying 'my urges aren't as strong as they have been' and you are guilty about leaving people.... why does it appear that you are trying to force yourself to do something you are not completely sure you want to do?

 

[justfloating]

If you are openly saying 'my urges aren't as strong as they have been' and you are guilty about leaving people.... why does it appear that you are trying to force yourself to do something you are not completely sure you want to do?

Because it's only one person I feel guilty about. I don't want to give life a chance again but my subconscious is telling me I should

 

[Jean4]

Because it's only one person I feel guilty about. I don't want to give life a chance again but my subconscious is telling me I should

I apologize. You said that your urges aren't as strong as they once were.

Nobody here will stop you from doing this. However, it is your choice to make. When it is time, you won't need to ask people on a forum what to do because you aren't sure and may back out after traveling for 3 hours.

Again. I'm not trying to stop you. I just suggest you do some more thinking so you feel more confident and comfortable with your decision. :)

We are here if you want to talk about it.

 

[Lostnotfound]

Because it's only one person I feel guilty about. I don't want to give life a chance again but my subconscious is telling me I should

Maybe you should not 'not' do it but delay it to give yourself time to think? Is than an option for you?

 

[justfloating]

Maybe you should not 'not' do it but delay it to give yourself time to think? Is than an option for you?

I guess that's my only real choice. I just don't want my life so it's hard to live, but there's some stupid force stopping me

 

[s1mplem3]

Just give yourself time.

 

[Jean4]

I guess that's my only real choice. I just don't want my life so it's hard to live, but there's some stupid force stopping me

We do understand. We all here do. I am sorry things are so hard for you. We are here to support you. No, it won't cure things. However talking to us here... people who understand does help.