Hanniewants2die
Member
- Apr 27, 2025
- 15
Hi, I never thought I'd end up in a place like this, although I've been quietly looking for it and I guess I was lucky enough to find it.
I'm 19 years old and I'm looking for death. I know it's the right decision because I've already tried everything to avoid it, not by choice, but because I didn't want to disappoint anyone.
To sum it up, I've had a shitty life, full of bullying, pressure from my mom to be a good student, living with my brother who drinks too much, etc. I've tried to move on many times, but this is eating me up and I can't take it anymore, so I started to devise a method. However, I don't even know if it's painless and I need help from someone who knows about it.
I've tried everything, exercising, hanging out with friends, going to therapy, and even taking medicine to get better, but nothing has worked.
Thanks to my constant visits to the psychiatrist I have in my possession 500gm Valcote, I think that was its name, it is supposed to be designed to calm you down, which works, because while I was taking it I always felt sleepy.
So my plan is to take a new gas tank my mom uses for cooking, take the 16 pills I still have left in the bottle, and lock myself in my room with the gas running through the place.
My logic is that pills make me sleepy, if I take more than one I will probably end up falling asleep or passing out, being a strong medication I won't wake up while the gas is being released.
I searched on internet and supposedly the gas in closed spaces would kill me in an hour at most, but I definitely don't want something to happen that would prevent me from dying, surviving would be the worst thing that could happen to me.
I want to know, is it effective? And if not, what can I modify or change to make it work? I also want to avoid hurting others.
So if you can help me with this, I will be eternally grateful, thank you. :)
I'm 19 years old and I'm looking for death. I know it's the right decision because I've already tried everything to avoid it, not by choice, but because I didn't want to disappoint anyone.
To sum it up, I've had a shitty life, full of bullying, pressure from my mom to be a good student, living with my brother who drinks too much, etc. I've tried to move on many times, but this is eating me up and I can't take it anymore, so I started to devise a method. However, I don't even know if it's painless and I need help from someone who knows about it.
I've tried everything, exercising, hanging out with friends, going to therapy, and even taking medicine to get better, but nothing has worked.
Thanks to my constant visits to the psychiatrist I have in my possession 500gm Valcote, I think that was its name, it is supposed to be designed to calm you down, which works, because while I was taking it I always felt sleepy.
So my plan is to take a new gas tank my mom uses for cooking, take the 16 pills I still have left in the bottle, and lock myself in my room with the gas running through the place.
My logic is that pills make me sleepy, if I take more than one I will probably end up falling asleep or passing out, being a strong medication I won't wake up while the gas is being released.
I searched on internet and supposedly the gas in closed spaces would kill me in an hour at most, but I definitely don't want something to happen that would prevent me from dying, surviving would be the worst thing that could happen to me.
I want to know, is it effective? And if not, what can I modify or change to make it work? I also want to avoid hurting others.
So if you can help me with this, I will be eternally grateful, thank you. :)
